Mood Swings

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How many of you have mood swings or alittle bipolor?

I'm not bipolar, but I do have rather nasty mood swings.

WHAT f*****g MOOD SWINGS!?!?!?!?

Sorry, couldn't help it.

Sometimes I get really depressed for little reason, don't know if that counts.

Only if people have been periodically pissing me off for my whole life. Ie, my parents, and a while back kids at school and pretty much everyone.

I wonder how come I always get pissed off at someone. And If I wanted to talk to my parents about it. They won't know what the heck I was talking about plus they will get fusterated at me for confusing them. It sucks!

I have some rather hectic mood swings... not bipolar though.
It's odd though - I sometimes can't identify with me being either high or low. I think 'Wow how am I doing this?' when feeling high, and when low - 'For what reason should this be happening?'
If this makes sense.

I'm not sure if I have highs, but I definitely have lows, and they always screw up my life.

This is how I feel too I just came on the forum because I feel confused and a bit low. Life is getting me down atm. I like to analysis why I feel the way I do. Sometimes I can figure out why but not always. The world is such a strange place. I think I feel things differently than the people around me. Small things can upset me, while larger things don't. I get jealous of other peoples close relationships (this is one of the reasons I am down atm). I long for close relationships, even though I do have a dh but he is at work atm and doesn't understand why I need to have someone close to me sometimes. Other times I want to be left alone. It must be confusing for him. I really want chocolate atm. It seems to help when I feel like this.

I love it when my mind is soaring I feel so free with lots of ideas. It feels like all the pathways in my brain are open. I suddenly understand things. It is bliss untill it gives me a headache and I feel dizzy. I wish I didn't have to worry about everyday type things. I wish I could just do the important things (to me) instead of cooking, cleaning. All the boring things that stress me and hinder me from doing what I want to do.

My official DX is Bipolar. Just getting over a depressive swing, nasty one but brief in comparison to my past. Stumbled onto a med that helps. Now what does this med really treat? I don't know. It might help with the PTSD, it might be the AS, it might be the Bipolar, or something else we don't have a clue about. This last swing I saw triggers being pulled, which lends itself to be more PTSD in nature, but at this stage I don't know anymore.

By triggers I mean a couple of off handed remarks made on WP which wouldn't mean anything to most anybody else, but cut, even though their intent wasn't meant that way. A post I made trying to help another in the Haven brought something home to me I'd rather not remember. A few odd things not going well at home and BANG, hello old friend depression, which feeds on it self. Every where I looked was just a reminder of failure. The barrel of a gun was a pleasant thought, but..... I know this old friend well and I know this too shall pass and it did in about 3 days. Better living through modern chemistry The old depressions would go for many months. Manic? What the hell is that, very rare and even then mostly it's just obsessions and stimming, revving myself up, not some chemical action in the brain. PTSD rages look like manic too. They teach me to be observant about what I feel and then report back to them in any kind of passion and guess what, yup, that's being manic.

I've not been diagnosed as bipolar but I do get marked mood swings. I don't know if it's part of the depression cycle, as I've had that on and off for many years, but the last few years, instead of going from depressed - normal, I go from depressed - very high - normal - depressed etc. It's always worse at this time of year when the natural daylight starts to decrease (I live in the UK)
I do use a lightbox at this time of year, which is helping, but I've been on a low for a few days now which as well as feeling pretty blue really screws up my concentration and slows down my ability to think. Yesterday I cried for a bit for no reason. Today is on the up. The highs, I love them! I don't think they're any more to do with 'reality' than the lows - but I do enjoy the trip. Trouble is, it usually ends in a huge BUMP when I fall back to earth.

Yes...it took me years to realise this, that it will actually pass. When I'm feeling very depressed, the depression monster kids me into thinking it's here forever. That has become my mantra for times like that 'it will pass, it will pass'. It helps.

Oh yeah, that little bump you speak of. That can be an understatement. I tend to use the word crash. Actually another member and I were just talking about it earlier, she had read that street drugs can't even give that pure a high. I'm inclined to agree, having been on that side of the street too. It is a common thing for those on BP meds to get off them because they miss that "high".

Watch for this one when you hit a low. It came to me one day while in a depression. I actually was protecting the depression. Sounds weird doesn't it. But yet that's exactly what I was doing. Now I'm talking about the depression that isn't fleeting can go on for months. Depression had become so comfortable I didn't want to get out of it, even though I knew better. It's hard to put into words. Just watch for it, it's kind of startling when you see it. When I use the term "old friend" there is a bit of irony in my voice.

This I'm sure I don't need to tell you, but I bet the vast majority don't know about it here. They tend to think you're either "low" or "high", they don't understand you can have cycles within cycles. There is also unipolar, oh this is just such fun stuff to wade through, not. Then toss in the sun cycles, humm goodie. I am alive at night, it helps, I control the light, but even then the seasonal change gets to me. Then for some unknown reason the body clock wants to reset it self from time to time and I don't have a clue why. Fun stuff isn't it. Sometimes it's freakin finger nails in the desk stuff and that sweet mantra, this too shall pass. But damn, months of waiting sometimes kind of gets you to wondering if you're right. So far I have been.

I also experience cycles within cycles which come out of the blue during a normal couple of weeks (if I'm lucky enough to have a normal phase lasting that long) I can go from being very depressed indeed, not even wanting to be alive, not suicidal but certainly wishing for non-existance, to trippy, happy, full of the joys of spring, in just one day. That is very weird, and hard for my family. They don't know how to be with me, so I say just keep an emotional distance from whatever I'm feeling, not to let my moods change them in any way. If the people around me are stable, then it helps me too. If they start zooming up and down with me, I think I'd get completely lost. I can stand my own rollercoaster rides, so long as there is firm ground waiting for me when the ride stops.

Really it depends on my situation if I am calm no stress at all I will be happy and I will be in a good mood all day if I have any stress or I have to do something mainly something new I have mood swing and the mood swings come with a vengeance

Im not bi-polar, but do have mood swings that dont have to be triggered by outside forces. Its probably a chemical imbalance, tho very mild, sometime it can be more extreme, I feel more energetic and happy more then sad or depressed often, tho on rair occasion I get real depressed, it lasts a few days and usually results in me having to visit a certin place, it can be many places, but 1 inpartiular, if I go to, and know I need to be their at some point (always a place I have been in my past) ill go, come back home and suddenly ill feel fine. Im a FREAK!! HEHE

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edit: ((oops my reply got intercepted, i meant the above for mrmacphisto ))

anyways.

been officially diagnosed bipolar, i think i'm a lot better now (i've left therapy and meds 3 years ago), but i always have PMS to blame for my mood swings :E

LMAO Mood swings ay? I know my fair share of that... lol ha!
I mean good God man...
You know I think I might have a bit of cyclothymia...