paolo wrote:
Are you touchy? Do you remember for a long time offences?
Yes-I hold some grudges that are reasonable (in my mind).
paolo wrote:
I am extremely touchy. Of some persons, inclusive of my parents, I remember only slights and offences, even very light expressions of irritation or hostility towards me. In the case of my parents I remember nearly only offences. Some of these date 60 years back.
Bad experiences make strong impressions-makes sense from survival p.o.v.-but for our layered consciousness, it's a bummer that produces excess/unnecessary (beyond minimum needed to be useful/instructive) suffering.
My parents are dead-and in a few ways I miss them, but in some ways I really don't. Also have anger & resentment towards people (non-family) who were mean to me when we were teenagers. At least I have nicer people in my life now, something happier to pay attention to & try to fill my brain with memories of.
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