Jeyradan wrote:
Ifor instance, when there is a social cue I should have gotten and didn't... in that case, I get embarrassed when it is pointed out to me, even if it is much later on)... I mostly just avoid and shut down briefly, or become overwhelmed instead of classically embarrassed).
overwhelmed...accurate descriptive...it disturbs me tremendously when I feel I've done something to give others the impression that I'm stupid. I suppose that's '
feeling foolish', but it's far more humiliating than that sounds...comes with a heavy dose of self-loathing...and no, I don't think it's ever as visible to others as I
feel at that moment...I usually just smile slightly (note: what
feels like a smile to me, apparently appears utterly expressionless to others) or look contemplative and wish I could die right then and there.
Funny, though - that's when I cause it myself. When others go out of their way to try and embarrass me, I'm not phased by their antics at all. It just seems childish and rather pointless.