Low confidence equals being overlooked...

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Hi,
I don't wanna sound like an overdramatic teenager but I am just going to go over some things...
I did have a messed up childhood, my Dad tried to kill my Mum, she had a mental breakdown, my Gran used to lock me in a cupboard becasue I looked like my Dad, and I went into Foster care.
I was bullied throughout school for being different, I am very eccentric and I had and still have hardly any friends.
I now have extrememe confidence issues and anxiety, I am paranoid, depressed and I feel I have alot to give to the world e.g volunteering for the homeless and elderly which I am currently doing but I feel as though I dont get respect for it because these days in scoiety you have to fancy yourself and be cocky to be attractive and seen.
I am jealous and compare myself with others who are confident because I feel that I derserve to be liked for wanting to be different and help others but I get none.
M Mum has never had much money so I havn't had a chance to have the finer things in life e.g go abroad or generally have anything positive to do.
I am now 16 and I am known to be intelligent and articulate but I have no motivation, I am stuck in a world full of wars, discrimination and ignorance.

All I want to do is make the world a betetr place and it isn't getting seen, why are unconfident peope overlooked?

I have a passion for thing such as helping others who need it and listening to people if they need to talk, but no others teenagers would do that for me.
Am I just thinking to highly of myself or can somebody relate?

Thanks alot, and I know this has been negative but it is true, I dropped out of college becuase I got mugged, I guess if you look like a victim then you get trreated like one.


If I told people I sleep around they would think better of me... why can't people like us just be respected for not wanting to be a stereotype, is this all in my head?
And yeah I am frustrated and I think it shows,
AND THEY THINK I AM AWKWARD, MAYBE SO BUT AT LEAST I AM AN INDIVIDUAL WHO WANTS BETTER FOR OTHERS
Calm now
Feedback please

Well....I do relate to some of this, and I totally hear you and I agree with you...I'm just horrible at giving advice, but I am here to listen when you need someone to talk to (yeah, that helps a lot lol). We need more people like you around to have that drive to make a difference, you know.

Thanks man, that means alot, I just wish mroe people would see that part of me instead of just looking skin deep, I feel abit stupid about my post but people do act like that when they're frustrated,

cheers

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ah, alot of the time, why do you ask?

You sound like a wonderful person and I wish I could be there to show you the respect you deserve. Most people are too caught up in themselves to notice the kindness of others, but don't worry too much about it. If you believe in God, just believe that he sees all the good you do; if not, do what you're doing for the sake of doing it. If you don't expect people to notice, then you won't be disappointed. And it'll be really nice when someone comes along and is amazed by how thoughtful you are.

I'm very sorry to hear about your childhood. Turning out the way you have is amazing in itself. Keep it up!

Lindsay

I definitely relate a bit to you. The fact that you go out of your way to help people should give you confidence in yourself. As you get older you'll find that people appreciate the kind of person you are a lot more, because almost everyone eventually realizes they don't want arrogant people around.

Sounds like my teenage years. At the time i always thought (and often because people told me) that this was just typical "teenage angst" but as I started getting into the later years of high school and started to see that i was quite different from all of the teenagers I knew that I was pretty far from typical :S The real challenge, i think, is trying to hang on to that desire to change the world as you age because I think a lot of people lose it and see those desires as "unrealistic". People tend to become desensitized as they get older. Sad, but true i think

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thanks for the support guys!
Much appreciated

With the exception of the childhood history, I do relate. I know I'm a beautiful person on the inside if people would just look that far in me. My friends that I have do. I didn't find them until very late in life, like 22. Everyone else I hung out with up to that point were using me. I was fortunate that my father bought me a car, so everyone wanted a ride. My husband, I met him when I was 26. I often think to the movie, Mulan, and what the dad says something to the effect of, "Aren't the flowers pretty? Oh look, there's one that has yet to bloom. I'm sure when it does bloom, it will be the most beautiful of them all." And also when the Emperor says something about a flower blooming in adversity is the most rare and precious of them all.... Anyway, I always found those words semi comforting after the movie came out, but I am a chic.

I always told myself growing up that I wasn't going to let those people affect who I am, and I was never ever going to turn into one of them. I just work hard at doing the right thing and to hell with everyone else. I realized later in life that there were guys in high school who had a crush on me. There were girls who wished they could hang out with me and thought I was too cool for them (even though I was a friendless nerd). There were also people trying to be my friend and I didn't notice because I assumed they would never do that. People do look up to me and like my charity and kind heart even though they never showed it.

The military taught me that my mind and body was capable of a lot more than what I ever imagined, and all you can do to tap into that is constantly challenge yourself.

My greatest suggestion to you is to find some inspiration. You could look up Catholic Saints, find a few that you relate to, and read up on their lives. In addition, read biographies of people who you always admired or wish you could be more like. Many of your billionaires are self made. Oh, and the teen version of highly successful people is a good read too. I personally found The Tao of Pooh an awesome book for me to find my peace and center type thing.

Since I looked at your interest and saw music... I also totally recommend Beethoven as a Biography and Discography (especially his 9th Symphony...the scherzo and trio/2nd movement) and the Immortal Beloved movie. Also, there's a biography on metal, and I found that kinda inspiring to see these metal guys from the 80's going through stuff like that but never losing their confidence. I found the DVD, you are lucky. It's called Metal, A headbanger's journey, and the case gives the website, www.metalhistory.com as well as sevillepictures.com and warnervideo.com. I'm sure Steve Vai has an interesting biography somewhere worth reading. Growing up, I related most to rap music. It did give me a false sense of confidence as many rap artists have to have that section in the song that I call the "I'm the bomb, you aint got sht on me" section. My favorites now (some from then) are Nas, Kanye West, TuPac, Ice Cube and killarmy when it comes to the lyrics. I like Dre and Snoop, but I didn't really like what all they had to say. I think they are more interesting as a biographical type thing. I love Lil John, but that's because he's got some good beats. Oh, and Fort Minor is awesome, lyrics and different beats. But definitely, Nas and Kanye and Tupac has the best to offer when it comes to what they say.

I don't understand how you are 16 and dropped out of college...did I miss something in the OP? Either way, muggers do look for opportunity, but I try very hard to portray myself as confident, and that's not what they look for. They don't care about your psychological profile at all. All they look for is opportunity. Your best bet to avoid it is keep your valuables hidden and don't flaunt it, even the cash. Don't walk around by yourself especially at night. And, always watch your drink in public settings, especially if alcohol is around or you are in a place that's pretty dangerous. Oh, and lock up every time. Car, house, etc., lock it up. Even then, you can still get mugged. My cousin who is cocky, overly confident, and street smart with a history of collecting for guys you wouldn't want to cross even got mugged by a perfect stranger randomnly mugging people by knife point once. I've been mugged a couple times, but I was too drunk to notice, so that's why I don't get drunk anymore. There was one time when I left my wallet on the pay phone at college, but I guess I just didn't get a nice person who felt like they should try to return it (or I got an idiot that worked at the place that was too lazy or didn't know where to look for it when I asked if one was turned in). Either way, I'm just trying to tell you that muggings are randomn and criminals tend to be opportunity seekers, so it has nothing really to do with you as to the why, so don't be too hard on yourself.

I will also say that people tend to like happy people with positive attitudes irregardless of anything else about them.

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Yeah, nottingham

And thanks for the supprot and thanks to whatever his name as who wrote alot and was very skeptic, I like skeptisicm

Cheers

"Thanks man, that means alot, I just wish mroe people would see that part of me instead of just looking skin deep, I feel abit stupid about my post but people do act like that when they're frustrated,

cheers"


lol I'm not a man. Anyways, you do have a lot to offer and don't feel stupid that you posted it, trust me, there's things I have posted and wanted to post that I thought are/would be really lame to put up. And you're right, people do that when they're frustrated (or worse in my case lol!)

You.