26 Apr 2009, 4:04 am
Does anyone else feel like this every single day?
I'm prone to existentialist depression - I ponder over what the meaning of life is, why things happen as they do, and why people do the things they do. I constantly worry about saying or doing the wrong thing, both to others and to myself along my own path in life. I don't believe this life is all there is - sometimes I wish I did as things would be easier to deal with. I worry about making bad choices and the reasons why I make the choices I do. I never stop thinking, I have constant noise inside my head. I find it hard to cope with my life anyway (I'm AS and have an autistic child, and I also have physcial health issues) but all this non stop analysing and worrying drives me insane. I can't seem to stop it though. I've tried focussing on a special interest but I don't have that escape at the moment. I feel really trapped. I'm not sure what I want in a relationship or whether I want one at all. There's this guy interested in me but I don't know how I feel about him. Sometimes I just want to be alone but that could be the depression talking. I'm so tired of struggling and worrying 
26 Apr 2009, 4:39 am
26 Apr 2009, 4:39 am
Iv'e been there redplanet, and I know it's tough. A word of caution: feeling like this will play havoc on your body, and your health can deteriorate as did mines. What helped me? Medication. Specifically for anxiety. When the medication helped me to limit my anxiety, my mind quietened down, because my stress levels were subsiding. The negative thoughts started to become less. Following a routine and having something to look forward to each day also helped. I was trying to do things that would benefit me spiritually mostly, and in time I recovered physically and mentally. All I can say is that you must look forward to (everyday) an activity which is self improving. Maybe going to the gym, taking a bath, cooking a meal whatever will make you feel as if you're making progress in some way. The meds helped me, but I know everyone reacts differently so maybe you should consult a professional about it. Good luck... 
26 Apr 2009, 4:56 am
26 Apr 2009, 12:07 pm
How on Earth can a sense of progression be gleaned from bathing and cooking? Isn't the futility of having to repeat these tasks ad nauseam throughout life just to sustain oneself the exact antithesis to progression? I mean, you're not getting ANYWHERE! Bathing isn't progress, it's just fighting back a relentless wave of dirt and grime, it's nothing more than housekeeping for the body. You'll never be clean for more than a day or two at a time before having to do it all again, it's a dismal futility!
And don't get me started on gyms! Does running a treadmill feel progressive? Does and hour of incessant rowing in a stationary position feel progressive? Does pedalling a wheel-less cycle bolted to the ground feel progressive?
The only thing that progresses when you carry out those tasks is time.
26 Apr 2009, 1:57 pm
I'm prone to existentialist depression - I ponder over what the meaning of life is, why things happen as they do, and why people do the things they do. I constantly worry about saying or doing the wrong thing, both to others and to myself along my own path in life. I don't believe this life is all there is - sometimes I wish I did as things would be easier to deal with. I worry about making bad choices and the reasons why I make the choices I do. I never stop thinking, I have constant noise inside my head. I find it hard to cope with my life anyway (I'm AS and have an autistic child, and I also have physcial health issues) but all this non stop analysing and worrying drives me insane. I can't seem to stop it though. I've tried focussing on a special interest but I don't have that escape at the moment. I feel really trapped. I'm not sure what I want in a relationship or whether I want one at all. There's this guy interested in me but I don't know how I feel about him. Sometimes I just want to be alone but that could be the depression talking. I'm so tired of struggling and worrying
I feel exactly like that.
27 Apr 2009, 3:47 pm
Thanks for replying guys, it really helps to know other people feel like this and that I'm not alone. I will see my doctor about anxiety meds as I had been thinking along those lines for a while, I just hate seeing the doc 
I don't know how else to deal with it though, it's just so hard 
