Lonelybonesey wrote:
I know im not the only one in this situration its one of the facts that keeps me sane but..
Being unemployed is the central issue of my life i feel like ' worthless non-contributing, bludging member of society' That how i feel
I acknowledge it and i know the only way to make those feelings go away is to keep busy and keep trying.
Usually i do most of the house work these days in a family household of eight. But this does not offer me the benefits a real job provides. These thing include being able to support yourself finacially. Increse your social network and be proud of your acheivments.
Ive been on unemployment for a long time too, its horrible.
However, i dont feel much guilt about taxes, since learning more about the monetary system, which is basically a big scam designed to enslave us. Paying tax doesnt make someone a more 'worthy' or 'contributory' person overall, since some of the most wicked and destructive people pay the most tax, whilst youll meet some of the most incredibly warm-hearted and charitable people on welfare!
My suggestion, since you feel relatively able to work is to forget about the money for the time being and do some voluntary work. Although you wont get paid you'll get all the other rewards of doing a job (one thats actually
worth doing at all, unlike a lot of paid work) - self-esteem, exercise, sense of purpose, socialization etc - but without the same level of pressure and responsibility. If you find the right placement, itll set you up mentally and emotionally so that youll be more likely to find decent paid work when you feel ready.