Do you sometimes hate having a good memory?

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I remember books read years ago YA! college work,special interest etc. but also all those negative arguments run through my mind sometimes which is just depressing. IMO How can you smile and accept a good job on an A in college if just a few months ago I know they were putting down my Aspie obsession to college. Why accept OMG! We support you when months ago I was being yelled at "for not accomplishing much in life at 24) NOW 25. These and many other arguments and issues creep in my mind more than the positive can anyone relate and any ideas to help deal with it besides feeling depressed and crying yourself to sleep at night? Thank You

Yes. I can't ever get rid of horrible thoughts, events or tragedies from the past.

I have the same issue. Even if the images start to fade the emotions are just as raw and the shame just as real as when they occured. It sometimes brings on random cursing and grimaces of pain and a strong desire to hit things. Thankfully I've learend to contain most of it in public but even it private feeling like I don't have control of my mind is shameful.

I have a tendency to remember only the bad and never the good, which sucks. The only thing I can remember from middle school was the bullying, insults, and harassment by other students. I can't remember anything from elementary school unless it involves a teacher screaming at me about something.

I think the worst part about it is that I talk about with people they just say "just forget about it and move on". They don't have a clue how hard it is for me in comparison to how easy it is for them.

So you don't like being reminded of how much you've improved?

I also hate having a bad memory sometimes. I hate how less than savory things from my childhood run through my mind, sometimes. I also hate the memories of those spankings that I got from my parents and the school ground fights that they've led to.

I hate those bad high school memories of bullies who hated kids who were different. I hated being told to dance all the time. I didn't dance for anybody past the month of October, in Grade 8. I hated being told by my dad that one time, that because I have a learning disability under the North American description, that I would be doomed to an unsuccessful adulthood. I was even a hippie over that said statement. A hippie - the bottom of the social bucket without living on the streets. I apologize to WP members who are hippies today, ahead of time for that statement.

That's all for now. I'll add more later.

That's it I haven't improved. My behavior is criticized on a daily basis. My parents if you've seen past posts have tossed Rude b***h at me and even took away my laptop and see Aspie college obsession (special interest of mine is College) as pointless and I shouldn't "be obsessed it's not normal." Just last Fall there was an argument saying OMG! YOU HAVEN'T ACCOMPLISHED MUCH IN LIFE AND YOU'RE 24!! ! That made me feel low and depressed and I still have nights where I think of these harsh comments and cry myself to sleep at night. All therapy has done is say "be myself" and the Psychiatrist is all like "Up the dose of the pills that'll help you not think about it." I sighed and chose NOT to change the dosage. Who'd think it'd be so hard to get REAL Psychological help out there. GO FIGURE!

Amen.

I also remember everything good which means almost everytime I do something I think 'I did this better in 2007..why can't I do it now?' I have to constantly better myself. Makes me competitive, agressive and motivated which I view as a good thing I guess.

My memory haunts me, and it's almost only bad stuff. I can't get any of the negativity out, permanently, and sometimes it all hits me at once, overwhelming me with thoughts of the reality of this world, and hatred towards the human species. There are only two things I believe could help me, other than true love, of course... alcohol, which I rarely use, and only works very temporarily, and then something else that I won't even mention... not drug-related, though.

Ironically, I have had a very "good" and "lucky" life, in so many ways... but that doesn't help, in my case. One should not merely think about oneself, and those close to oneself... that is one of my main "problems". Recently, however, you can add to that my main interests are being taken away from me... although that's not really related to my memory. However, I suppose that if I had my true love, I'd finally be able to be happy, anyway, as her presence would far outweigh all the negativity of this world.

I wish I had good advice to you, on how to deal with it, but I'm afraid I don't have that.

I do.. when I watch horror movies!

Many of my good memories when I remember them are cool but then a bad one will creep up because it was near to the time of a positive memory so in that sense I'd rather not remember either.

it seems to me your issue is with regret and guilt, not memory. you have to learn to let that stuff go, it'll eat you up if you don't. there's resources on the internet to deal with it if you can't afford to or don't wish to go to a therapist.

Let bygones be bygones, I know that's Clichéd and easier said then done, but it's critical to learn how to let that stuff go.

How to do that has always been a complete mystery to me. Well... not always... I still could, back when I was around sixteen. I guess the bullying I experienced, around that age, initialized me on the realization about how sh***y the vast majority of humanity is... and everything has just become more and more clear, as I have aged.

(Not that I wasn't bullied before that age, as well...)