scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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3 this morning, 8 tonight. Day got a lot better after a long nap. I get a bit grumpy when I am overtired.

-7, moving steadily towards -10.

-7, moving steadily towards -10.

7 Early morning and have slept well, lots of dreams -one in which I find I have a pet tiger who usually lives in the garden but sometimes comes inside to socialise. He was a very nice tiger but a visitor arrived (someone whom I didn't like in life, deceased, ultra conventional person very judgmental) and she was freaked out by tiger walking around the house. Woke up with a

Another day begins. Going to the library and maybe a movie later on.

-5
been 450 days since I planned to kill myself, apparently. I have nothing more to show for my life then back then. I actually had a more promising life then. the whole self protection mechanism is rather frustrating. though in reality I guess I don't want to die i fear it, bu I want to be free from the pain and sadness of life. hope in 9 years i'll be different mentally and be able to end it eventually the depression might overcome the self protection right?

3 because I am tired of being completely alone but I am slowly getting used to it.

0, ok someone I know sort of someone who's been a family friend more or less has died....and wasn't too happy with that person because of some rudeness on their part past few months. My dads been staying there and paying part of the rent but this person was being a real jerk about me, my brother going to visit my dad even for a short time like a couple hours....fairly recently he even oked it for us to come and watch a show with our dad but then was mad when we where there to watch it because we came early enough for my dad to make some dinner which pissed me off quite a bit. So not sure what I am supposed to feel like guess its awkward when someone you are rather angry at dies. At first I didn't even think my dad was serious that, that happened but yeah I guess so.

-10 but slowly going to -9 now Im getting sense of things.

9. Had a meet up with the social anxiety group, then I took a visitor from Mexico sightseeing around the city, ending up with the two of us having a delicious dinner at a Belgian gastro-pub: delicious salt and pepper squid/salad and Stella Artois (of course). Don't usually drink beer but the Stella was perfect with the squid which was the best I have ever had.

Best day for months. Evening now and going to watch a DVD, read, sleep. Hard to believe that 3 months ago I could hardly get out of bed. Still taking the GABA, don't think I will ever stop now. I seem to need it the way a diabetic needs insulin. It really has changed my life/motivation/everything. Aiming for a 10!! !!

-8

0 - I'm actually having a hard time telling you how I feel right now. Neutral I guess.

-8 it seems the world would be better if I died. Mixed opinions from people that i'm horrible or that i'm good. I can't see how both can be true so the first one would seem more logical. saddly I can not preform such act for the world though. but random voilence happens every day so maybe i'll be killed that way .

So much hopelessness on this thread, I wish I had a magic wand for you all. My day is a 7.

Well... today's a really good day, it seems. -4.

unintentional double post

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