scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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2 Worried, concerned, and wish I was more sociable.

3

I just wish I could rub myself out like a pencil drawing and disappear.

I dunno about a number I'm still a little upset and don't know what I should be doing with my life.

+100000000000000000.

i'm HOME. the sky is the right color. the sun is glinting off the leaves of my avocado tree in the backyard... perfection. happiness. yay.

9

I feel happy and loved today.

-10 i accidentallystood on a snail so to relieve its pain i crushed it with a brick

10

I have just had the best night ever!

3.5

4 For once there's more ppl that're happy, and I can't tell if I drive ppl away b/c I'm annoying in some ways or unsociable in others or both.

^ If people find you annoying, that's their problem, not yours. It's also their problem if they can't accept anyone with AS.

0 I'm nervous about my speech tomorrow I'm going to have to free lance it as I didn't prepare....
Want to talk to girls more and hang out but can't/won't/don't know how.

-10 to+10


happy but sad moment

-100 because I am scared to death that I have cancer. I had an MRI yesterday and they found something. I don't have much information right now. The specialist they are sending me to is either an oncologist ( a cancer doctor) or a neurosurgeon which both are very serious. My mom talked to them and both of the names sound similar as we checked both of them on the internet. I better not have cancer or I will kill myself the second I find out as I will die either way. Why live for 6 lousy months in pain and suffering going through chemo therapy just to die 6 months later anyways? I better just be worrying my head off for no reason. But as the story of my pathetic life continues as everything goes for the worst. I was doing so well up to a few minutes ago. A few days ago I said that I was a +10 because everything was great. Tomorrow is arts walk where I live and I was looking forward to it for months if not years. Now this is all I will be thinking about. I'm going to die. I don't want to die though. I am only 25 and normal people have another 50+ years to go but I might get a few months if it is the worst. By the way if it was just a blocked sinus (that is where they found the problems) , they wouldn't have called next day to tell me something is wrong. And to make things worse, I have bronchitis and it ain't going away even after I have been on anti biotics for 10 days. It didn't touch it and that confirms it is something serious because my body can't fight diseases anymore because of this problem. Why me? I thought I had a nice life ahead of me. Now I only see darkness. I hope to write in a few days again to tell you it wasn't serious and I was depressed for no reason. That would be so nice.

I would say a 5 as a minor emotional issue is bothering me at the moment.

I am more concerned about you FireBird. Please do write us in a few days and let us know how you make out.