Patternist: Glad to hear, at least it's not a zero
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MissC:
Hi miss, that's some heavy stuff, it makes me sad just to hear the things you're going through
No one is strong enough, maybe some people can look like that on the outside, but honestly it's better to let it go than burst later or never let it out.
Hope I'm explaining myself in engleesh (:
You are one of the most interesting persons I've ever met, and I'd be very sad to stop having the delight and the honor that is to have you around here, you always bring a smile to my face, and I'm sure also to many other people. You are very valuable, and I don't mean just the forum, but to every single person you know. The kids you are being a teacher right now, didn't you tell me that you love it? And what about that you are being asked to give even more lessons to even more people?
Without you I could have never discovered music like the one that Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan does. In fact I was going to ask you if you've heard Max Richter, nice music.
If you are feeling like you mention, look for help, talk with someone, exercise, get some rest, do a marathon of funny/positive movies (Zoolander, Talladega Nights, Bubble Boy and Spirited Away come to my mind), anything that will make you feel better.
Lots and lots of hugs missC, We are here to support you =)
I think I'm doing better now that I've increased my dose on klonopin. So I've calmed down some but I really feel like everything has just hit rock bottom. But thanks, I'll check this Max Richter out. And your little note just brought a smile to me so I think my scale went up to a 3.
Off topic...been dreaming about drinking again. I don't know why and then I wake up and have this craving to do it cos the dream makes it seem like I'm having good times like I did when I started....haven't been going to support groups. It's like the devil's on my right shoulder while the angel's on my left shoulder. I can't decide but I don't want to go back into that again.....