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18 Oct 2011, 7:40 pm

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It's becoming clear to me from seeing all the various things that are the focal points of different people's deep unhappiness that depression is an (ill) state of mind and that people in this state will be unhappy about something no matter what. I do not say this judgmentally, I say it as a fellow sufferer of it. I don't mean to be someone who says "you should be happy, you have so much" or "you have everything to live for" because I know untreated depression makes it so that you can never be happy with what you have and makes you think you have nothing to live for.

I feel like I'm being too blunt but my point is that if you can seek any form of medical help for your depression/PTSD that you haven't already sought, I really urge you to do so because depression and PTSD are illnesses that need treatment and treatment helps me, doesn't make things perfect but helps me to the point that I am able to do things that make me happy and that I have hope for the future...

I hope this hasn't sounded too judgmental/crass/whatever, it is my conviction and I say it cause I think it will help you... it can be hard living in a world that does not legitimize mental illness as real illness but it is real illness.


I already tried therapy for all that, and anti-depressants for the depression and it had little to no effect....and I am certainly depressed but it is true there is not much for me to look forward to. I mean part of why I am depressed is because of the situation I'm in......I live in a sick society that I don't even fully understand and will never really accept me as I am and I am expected to somehow suceed by societies standards.


I'm not sure as to what I can say here legally. But there's a certain chemical that was sysnthesised in switzerland somewhere close to 1940 that has proven itself to be highly effective in curing depression. Though I would never try such a drug, and never ever have; I IMAGINE it would give you a wonderful experience, and that even after the drug was out of your system, you would have a more positive outlook on life. If lets say however, that a person who resided in a country outside of the U.N.; in a country where this drug was legal, they would most certainly first have to research it and make sure they had responsible sitters to have a safe experience.
But I would never condone the use of such a drug...


I don't know that my depression is cureable.......but that could be something to look into, for now though cannabis seems to help.



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18 Oct 2011, 7:41 pm

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Yeah if I had to answer phones all day I would probably end up in the psych ward after the first day because I would end up having a mental breakdown....hell I would be lucky if I lasted a half hour that is how much talking on the phone especially to people I don't know freaks me out. Delivering things would not be so bad though I don't drive so that could be difficult.

There really is not a job that fits me.....and my family can't afford to help me with anything.


I had to work 4 hours per day, on fridays and saturdays. I lasted 2 weeks. And delivering leaflets was to every house, not specific ones. I do not drive, I have no need to; and I love to walk. If it's not too intrusive of a question, how old are you?


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18 Oct 2011, 7:44 pm

Sweetleaf wrote:
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Sweetleaf wrote:
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It's becoming clear to me from seeing all the various things that are the focal points of different people's deep unhappiness that depression is an (ill) state of mind and that people in this state will be unhappy about something no matter what. I do not say this judgmentally, I say it as a fellow sufferer of it. I don't mean to be someone who says "you should be happy, you have so much" or "you have everything to live for" because I know untreated depression makes it so that you can never be happy with what you have and makes you think you have nothing to live for.

I feel like I'm being too blunt but my point is that if you can seek any form of medical help for your depression/PTSD that you haven't already sought, I really urge you to do so because depression and PTSD are illnesses that need treatment and treatment helps me, doesn't make things perfect but helps me to the point that I am able to do things that make me happy and that I have hope for the future...

I hope this hasn't sounded too judgmental/crass/whatever, it is my conviction and I say it cause I think it will help you... it can be hard living in a world that does not legitimize mental illness as real illness but it is real illness.


I already tried therapy for all that, and anti-depressants for the depression and it had little to no effect....and I am certainly depressed but it is true there is not much for me to look forward to. I mean part of why I am depressed is because of the situation I'm in......I live in a sick society that I don't even fully understand and will never really accept me as I am and I am expected to somehow suceed by societies standards.


I'm not sure as to what I can say here legally. But there's a certain chemical that was sysnthesised in switzerland somewhere close to 1940 that has proven itself to be highly effective in curing depression. Though I would never try such a drug, and never ever have; I IMAGINE it would give you a wonderful experience, and that even after the drug was out of your system, you would have a more positive outlook on life. If lets say however, that a person who resided in a country outside of the U.N.; in a country where this drug was legal, they would most certainly first have to research it and make sure they had responsible sitters to have a safe experience.
But I would never condone the use of such a drug...


I don't know that my depression is cureable.......but that could be something to look into, for now though cannabis seems to help.


Well, if I had an imaginary friend who was somewhat like myself, he would most certainly enjoy smoking cannabis, it would relieve all worry for him, and stress. It would be peaceful, and happy. But let's say this friend had also tried the other afore-mentioned drug, he would most certainly say that the effect of happiness lasts for much longer (perhaps at least a week or so, before something small brought you down). He would also reccomend that you do not become dependant on cannabis, and that if you have money to spend on cannabis, you must also have money to save up for your future little farm.



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18 Oct 2011, 7:45 pm

I posted the Life in Hell cartoon to make Sweetleaf laugh. Did it work?



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18 Oct 2011, 7:45 pm

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So if you don't have a job, and presumably you're not studdying, how do you spend your time currently? And what is your source of income?



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18 Oct 2011, 7:48 pm

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I posted the Life in Hell cartoon to make Sweetleaf laugh. Did it work?


I hope so, it certainly made me smile. Where did you find it?



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18 Oct 2011, 8:23 pm

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So if you don't have a job, and presumably you're not studdying, how do you spend your time currently? And what is your source of income?


I am in college, but not doing that well this semester........have been spening quite a bit of time with my boyfriend because he's been depressed and was having some breathing problems and being there as much as possible feels like the right thing to be doing. Other then that I don't really do a whole lot I have to admit.



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18 Oct 2011, 8:24 pm

shrox wrote:
I posted the Life in Hell cartoon to make Sweetleaf laugh. Did it work?


yeah I thought it was funny.



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18 Oct 2011, 8:25 pm

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So if you don't have a job, and presumably you're not studdying, how do you spend your time currently? And what is your source of income?


I am in college, but not doing that well this semester........have been spening quite a bit of time with my boyfriend because he's been depressed and was having some breathing problems and being there as much as possible feels like the right thing to be doing. Other then that I don't really do a whole lot I have to admit.


What are you studdying in college? And do you enjoy the time with your boyfriend?



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18 Oct 2011, 8:28 pm

Baris10 wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
Baris10 wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
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So if you don't have a job, and presumably you're not studdying, how do you spend your time currently? And what is your source of income?


I am in college, but not doing that well this semester........have been spening quite a bit of time with my boyfriend because he's been depressed and was having some breathing problems and being there as much as possible feels like the right thing to be doing. Other then that I don't really do a whole lot I have to admit.


What are you studdying in college? And do you enjoy the time with your boyfriend?


Psychology and Sociology, though I am very burnt out on college......and yes I enjoy the time with him for the most part, but obviously It makes me kind of sad how bad hes been feeling the past couple weeks..but I like being there for him and I know he prefers it to being alone all the time.



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18 Oct 2011, 8:29 pm

Sweetleaf wrote:
Baris10 wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
Baris10 wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
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So if you don't have a job, and presumably you're not studdying, how do you spend your time currently? And what is your source of income?


I am in college, but not doing that well this semester........have been spening quite a bit of time with my boyfriend because he's been depressed and was having some breathing problems and being there as much as possible feels like the right thing to be doing. Other then that I don't really do a whole lot I have to admit.


What are you studdying in college? And do you enjoy the time with your boyfriend?


Psychology and Sociology, though I am very burnt out on college......and yes I enjoy the time with him for the most part, but obviously It makes me kind of sad how bad hes been feeling the past couple weeks..but I like being there for him and I know he prefers it to being alone all the time.


Does making him happy not make yourself happy? And why do you feel burnt-out? What did you go into the course aiming for?



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19 Oct 2011, 1:01 am

Baris10 wrote:
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Baris10 wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
Baris10 wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
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So if you don't have a job, and presumably you're not studdying, how do you spend your time currently? And what is your source of income?


I am in college, but not doing that well this semester........have been spening quite a bit of time with my boyfriend because he's been depressed and was having some breathing problems and being there as much as possible feels like the right thing to be doing. Other then that I don't really do a whole lot I have to admit.


What are you studdying in college? And do you enjoy the time with your boyfriend?


Psychology and Sociology, though I am very burnt out on college......and yes I enjoy the time with him for the most part, but obviously It makes me kind of sad how bad hes been feeling the past couple weeks..but I like being there for him and I know he prefers it to being alone all the time.


Does making him happy not make yourself happy? And why do you feel burnt-out? What did you go into the course aiming for?


Well no it does otherwise I would have broken it off already.....and I am not sure exactly why I feel burnt out its a number of things and it would take quite a while to list them all. Also, I don't even know what I was thinking going to college......I was so naive then I was going to go to a four year college and then on to law school....instead my first year of college was so miserable shortly after I transfered to another 4 year college and was faced with simular dissapointment I decided to be super intelligent and quit going to class while spending most of my time on various substances......then things happened and I decided it was best to just go back home, then I went out to another state with my dad and was staying with family while doing work on the property and even managed to get fired from a temorary job I accuired which when combined with my bad reaction to prozac, BS from alcoholic family members caused me to return home once again. Then after not being able to find work I decided to give college another go which was going ok until the end of last semester and this semester.....So in short I have no idea what I'm doing, I'm studying psychology and sociology because they are intresting but I don't know what goals those would help me with, I don't even have any set goals really.



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19 Oct 2011, 1:40 am

purchase wrote:
It's becoming clear to me from seeing all the various things that are the focal points of different people's deep unhappiness that depression is an (ill) state of mind and that people in this state will be unhappy about something no matter what. I do not say this judgmentally, I say it as a fellow sufferer of it. I don't mean to be someone who says "you should be happy, you have so much" or "you have everything to live for" because I know untreated depression makes it so that you can never be happy with what you have and makes you think you have nothing to live for.

I feel like I'm being too blunt but my point is that if you can seek any form of medical help for your depression/PTSD that you haven't already sought, I really urge you to do so because depression and PTSD are illnesses that need treatment and treatment helps me, doesn't make things perfect but helps me to the point that I am able to do things that make me happy and that I have hope for the future...

I hope this hasn't sounded too judgmental/crass/whatever, it is my conviction and I say it cause I think it will help you... it can be hard living in a world that does not legitimize mental illness as real illness but it is real illness.

This is all true. I think people who aren't depressed can still find small things to look forward to in life, even if the big picture seems bleak and meaningless. It's just hard for us depressed people to even imagine any small thing giving fulfillment that can make the struggle of existence bearable when we're depressed.



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19 Oct 2011, 5:25 am

Have you tried drinking a cup of milk, maybe some water.



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19 Oct 2011, 3:03 pm

LostUndergrad9090 wrote:
Have you tried drinking a cup of milk, maybe some water.


Don't see what that would do...