scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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only have one thing in my life keeping me sane

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Won't last though

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We've got all kinds of company over and I'm still rocked out from last night. My social skills are about 30%.

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i want to die

im not gonna, i just want to

im glad

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I fell off a step-stool earlier. It's a cr@p plastic thing my mom has that you need to be careful when you step on it because the legs can bend a little. I complained about that before but she leaves the good 1s picked up because that one is lighter so it's easier to move around. None of us has ever fallen off it before. The legs on one side bent a little when I got on it & it tipped-over. I'll spare the details about how I fell & hurt different parts of my body because that could take a while for me to type. I'm not as sore as I was but some part are still pretty sore.
I'm also really tired because I've only been sleeping a couple hours a night lately because I HATE sleeping alone; I made a post about that begging of the week in Haven http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt184869.html
I'm feeling extremely lonely rite now in addition to p!ssed & sore & I don't know how much longer I can take feeling lonely. I would honestly rather blow my brains out than spend all of this new year alone. I'm NOT going to do that thou because I think there is a chance I could find someone somehow. I need to find a job so I can afford to try the mail-order bride route

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OCD OCD OCD OCD OCD OCD OCD OCD OCD OCD

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Seriously no idea at the moment.

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I'm really hankering for a drink right now.

0. I do not feel that feel right now.

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really crappy, i'm getting damn sick of these stomach aches. it never ends and after 10 different tests at the hospital they still can't tell me why.

it's an endless cycle of pain and constipation, at this point i'd rather starve and die because at least the cycle would end. rather then being a pain glutten and keep my self alive to go through the damn cycle forever.

i have no motivation to do anything anymore, because i'm in constant pain that make me want to be bed ridden. but my obsession with my computer demands my attention.

also the story in my head has become so disjointed i can no longer keep it straight, and feeling it slipping away is killing me. because i can't keep it going anymore, i can't keep track of it.

i wish i had the courage to stick a bullet in my skull because at least i would be out of my pain for a few seconds if that. right now even that would be worth it.

Internet is down but, I bought welcome to the nhk and I have it tonight so I am going to watch few episodes and go to bed.
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