scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+4

-8 wanna hurt myself

-6

I have a very heavy workload at work, and I can't work on any of it tomorrow because I have a doctor's appointment. I really don't want to go, but unfortunately I can't reschedule, so this really sucks.

+4

-3

-1.

Getting over a man cold. It wasn't bad, but I still ended up stuck in bed all day. Not like my mother: she could have the flu, a stomach bug, a migraine, a hangover and malaria, and she'll still make it to work. I feel like I'm letting down men everywhere.

Anxiety sucks, it's so stupid how it is in the moment and I can see how irrational it is from outside perspective but can't do anything about it. I'll be thinking about it later and feel nothing, I'm ready to do it right then and there of course when I can't. I wish I tougher, I wish was the type of person who just doesn't give a **** about anything. I practice so much brinkmanship with myself, I have to bottom out before I can force myself to do anything. I have to get into a bad place to push me to do certain things and I hate that about myself. It is always simple too, I think things and I'm getting answers that I didn't already know. I'm such a procrastinator, I avoid everything that takes effort or stresses me. Life just feels like a big Sisyphean task, I get over one hurdle but then there is just something else that causes me stress that I worry over that nobody else would.

I'm taking about simple stuff scheduling my own doctor appointments, why do I struggle with stupid **** like that? I know there is no reason for that to bother me but it does, it kills me for some reason and I can see irrational it is but it doesn't go away. I'm feel like child, I'm just helpless and dependent.

Whatever dude, I'm just going to have to suffer until I can't take it anymore like usual.

-3

^^ completely agree, anxiety does suck.

0 I'm stressing over seeing my therapist tomorrow. I'm supposed to find some type of social engagement, but there just isn't much around that works with my schedule. I thought about a yoga class, but I can do that at home for free.

Also, my diet has turned into a "see food" diet once again.

-1
need to keep steady on or I'm likely to freeze

-5 kind of angry....disspointed in a friend, or maybe so called friend don't know see what they have to say for themselves I guess, either way if I decide to still consider them any kind of friend I will put them on my 'don't trust this person with your things/make sure not to leave anything behind around them' list.


...well now I am just in kind of a crappy mood over-all, not just from that though.

-4

I wish I knew how to make independent decisions and how to stop worrying about stupid sh*t that won't happen anyway.

-8

Lets put it at a +6, had a pretty good second half of the day. Sold some stuff on a craigslist that I've been wanting to get rid of forever, made some appointments, the mean front desk lady was actually nice today, and finished it up going out to the basketball game. Now if only the stuff I've been waiting for forever in the mail would come.

-9.5

Knowing that I have no peace of mind when it comes to my medication worries me. Just when I thought I got answers, I get more questions instead.

-2, stupid room flooded a bit again, so sick of that...but whatever.

-3 Encountering metal difficulties, like getting my act together. It seems to be tied mentally to my failure with a certain person. Separating the two might take time, effort, all that fun stuff. I don't even know how to rationally create the necessary counter in my mind. Well, maybe I do, it just doesn't really feel right, making it hard to push myself continuously towards.