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cathylynn
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01 Aug 2017, 8:53 pm

Britte wrote:
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WOW! i don't think the day i got into med school or the day i got engaged were even that good. care to share?



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01 Aug 2017, 9:00 pm

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-7 feeing like I'm unlovable and worthless

You're not worthless.

But I am in societies view which most women follow without question. I'm in ssi and can only manage 20 hours a week for work. So I live off around 700-900 a month. I can't afford to fix, buy or insure a car. So I'm jobless(in women's eyes), careless and I don't have my own place I rent a place with family. On top of all that I'm bit chubby and super ugly.

Very Few women I do get interest from are just lying and leading me on for what suck purpose i dont know


Well, let's pretend I'm 29 and single... I have my own car, so I don't need you to have one. I have my own place, nothing great but it's mine. We can go there if we wanna, you know. If we decide to live together, we can live there (but no griping about my 30 year old single-wide trailer). I have my own income, it's not much because I majored in liberal arts, but it's more important to me to be frugal than wealthy anyway.

We're all going to finish life up old, sick, or both; either fat or emaciated, and saggy and wrinkled. Or else we're going to die suddenly. I bet you have some great features. Nice eyes?? A warm smile?? A comforting grip?? An upper arm that makes a nice pillow?? Sense of humor?? Empathy and compassion?? Deep thoughts?? The ability to have conversations that would only be interesting to an autistic, for hours?? Willingness to work, in one form or another, whether you can handle a full time job or not??


Sadly there's very few women like you or sweetleaf and they all like you two are already taken.

I'd rather not live into old age. The idea of living that long alone and sad isn't life.
I dont know my face is quite ugly
I make people laugh, both on purpose and not, doesn't seem rather helpful though.
Empathy and compassion seem rather u wanted by most women. I tend to feel more empathy towards animals and bugs. I don't really like them but I value their life and feel for their situation.
I try to work hard but I'm also a bit lazy and enjoy playing video games :(


It's surprising how many people in this world see themselves as ugly, when in reality they are actually decent looking or at least average. There is a subreddit forum where people post their faces to be rated by others, and so many of them have extremely low self-esteem despite having faces that are anything but ugly. They post there for confirmation of their poor self-image. I used to see myself as ugly. Looking back at this period, I realized that I easily could have been more attractive than I am now - I simply didn't put effort into making myself look presentable. I didn't have a nice smile, my hair was messy, and I didn't bother to wear nice clothing. I also barely ever took pictures of myself. All of that slowly changed as I began to love myself, flaws and all. It was tough, and it was a very slow process. I still get depressed at times, but I don't beat myself up like I used to.

Being lazy and playing video games is fine by the way :P


I've been there and posted. Most the people posting there are gorgeous women I noticed. I posted like I said cause most responses were your not ugly, but all my responses were "you're super ugly sorry dude"
Here's recent pictures I took today after shaving viewtopic.php?t=352032

It is? Most women say in dating sites they don't want a lazy gamer guy, they want an ambitious go getter.

you're not ugly at all. nice eyes. i wouldn't pick you out in a crowd. if your work allows, maybe letting the hair grow a bit would enhance your face. you also look clean cut and well-kept which is a big plus.



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02 Aug 2017, 7:26 pm

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03 Aug 2017, 3:03 pm

I want to hurt people (like with words, be they facts or just insults) and then kill myself.

I'm repressing the desire to tell my MIL exactly all the ways she has contributed to the state I'm in, then drive over to the local HUD development and go up and down the streets with the windows down screaming racial epithets, disability slurs, and insults demeaning the general worth of anyone who needs any kind of public assistance to survive, then see exactly how fast a 10-year-old minivan can hit a stone wall.

Exactly three things are stopping me.

1) My kids would know it was a suicide. They're not stupid.

2) The second step in that process could put someone else who's struggling where I'm at now.

3) Vehicle "accidents" are unpredictable and difficult to control. I think I could keep from getting anyone else involved in the crash, but I might not actually die.

What number is that??


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03 Aug 2017, 10:03 pm

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I want to hurt people (like with words, be they facts or just insults) and then kill myself.

I'm repressing the desire to tell my MIL exactly all the ways she has contributed to the state I'm in, then drive over to the local HUD development and go up and down the streets with the windows down screaming racial epithets, disability slurs, and insults demeaning the general worth of anyone who needs any kind of public assistance to survive, then see exactly how fast a 10-year-old minivan can hit a stone wall.

Exactly three things are stopping me.

1) My kids would know it was a suicide. They're not stupid.

2) The second step in that process could put someone else who's struggling where I'm at now.

3) Vehicle "accidents" are unpredictable and difficult to control. I think I could keep from getting anyone else involved in the crash, but I might not actually die.

What number is that??

easier to describe with words than a number: desolate and irate

glad you're thinking about your kids. i hope your concern for them keeps you going until something good happens. sorry you're feeling so disconsolate in the meantime.



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04 Aug 2017, 3:56 am

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I want to hurt people (like with words, be they facts or just insults) and then kill myself.

I'm repressing the desire to tell my MIL exactly all the ways she has contributed to the state I'm in, then drive over to the local HUD development and go up and down the streets with the windows down screaming racial epithets, disability slurs, and insults demeaning the general worth of anyone who needs any kind of public assistance to survive, then see exactly how fast a 10-year-old minivan can hit a stone wall.

Exactly three things are stopping me.

1) My kids would know it was a suicide. They're not stupid.

2) The second step in that process could put someone else who's struggling where I'm at now.

3) Vehicle "accidents" are unpredictable and difficult to control. I think I could keep from getting anyone else involved in the crash, but I might not actually die.

What number is that??


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07 Aug 2017, 5:55 am

cathylynn wrote:
Britte wrote:
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WOW! i don't think the day i got into med school or the day i got engaged were even that good. care to share?


oh, I didn't see this^. Sorry, cathylynn. That was after having a good run in the games with DeepHour. : ))
A lot of fun! How are things going with you? I hope very well!



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07 Aug 2017, 10:37 am

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WOW! i don't think the day i got into med school or the day i got engaged were even that good. care to share?


oh, I didn't see this^. Sorry, cathylynn. That was after having a good run in the games with DeepHour. : ))
A lot of fun! How are things going with you? I hope very well!

not exactly very well, but good enough. thanks.



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07 Aug 2017, 10:48 am

I hope the best...

I am going to message you while on my lunch break.



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07 Aug 2017, 11:43 am

Family Vacations: A special kind of Hell in which six people expect me to facilitate the fulfillment of all their hinted-at expectations, in close quarters, with added pressure to look like I am relaxing and having a good time.

The meals should be stellar, the housekeeping should be perfect, there should be constant activity, and everyone should be giggling AT ALL TIMES.

I realize that NO MOTHER actually relaxes on a family vacation. But I'm pretty sure this level of pressure and torture is not normal, healthy, or NECESSARY.

I fully understand why we never took vacations when I was growing up. This is worth paying TO AVOID.


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08 Aug 2017, 11:17 pm

-7 wish a woman could like me :cry:



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09 Aug 2017, 2:40 pm

+5

I managed 3 party evenings in a row and now I'm having some lovely alone time. Reconnected with an old friend too :)