scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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^^^does your doc know about this?

I spoke to the doctor's office earlier and they said if I'm still dizzy tomorrow to come in and see the doctor. I'm hoping it's gone by then though.

At my typical level 7.

4. I wish i lived in a place specifically designed for people like me. I feel no connection to anyone.

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Still waiting on my transmission repair.
Still waiting on washer / dryer inspection and removal (no laundry).
The house is freezing cold.
They're installing a new furnace now, but the temporary heat is shut off.
I'm so tired of having dirty strangers in and out my house.
I'm so tired of being cold.
I want my car back.

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moved to king county WA to start a new life and come out of my shell.

pandemic strikes and king county is among the hardest hit. everyone is pressured to stay home all day
and fester. i just got a job and now i may be laid off.

the divide and conquer tactic could not be more obvious. first society is atomized with technology making everyone live in a bubble, destruction of communities and institutions, work everyone so hard they can't afford to care about their neighbors and finally the quarantine bit. then comes the culling

if i wanted to stay home all day i would have stayed in the hellhole of california.

2020 is a real doomer year and there are 9 more months. i have no connection to anyone nor are there any people on earth remotely similar to me
i want to shoot myself. life will never ever get better or go my way.

^^^this, too, shall pass.

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My state seems to be inching towards a full quarantine and now I'm starting to get even more worried.

Hmm..

Can't roam around outside and possibly find something new.
On the other hand, I pretty much have the whole house for good 9-30 hrs per week for possibly this whole month.

Making my own (clearly-defined) space in a shared room.
A very clearly defined boundary of a space that no one else will and should ever touch except myself. This household already stolen several furnitures I've brought with my own pocket money -- I won't let them 'take over' this one, charity be damned.
Lots of work, but I wouldn't doubt that this few hours of manual labor would be a huge investment for my own well being. Holding something like this from myself for decades... Finally I won't have to.

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I don't know, I've been in a daze. I've been feeling completely overwhelmed. I have been wanting to do nothing but sleep for days, but I never get enough sleep due to my own deficiency of sticking to any kind of schedule for myself.

I've been ranging from being on the verge of tears, to breathing and telling myself it's going to be okay. I have been staying on top of things when it comes to daily life, but I'm also very forgetful. I haven't missed any bill payments or accidentally left the oven on, at least.

Then there are new upheavals that happen nearly daily and I'm back to square one. I'm living with it, but it's tough. I know once this all blows over it will get better. Being in the trenches is always the worst part.

I still have no idea how I am going to home school my kids AND work full time. The governor closed schools in the state through the end of the school year. My poor daughter already misses her teacher dearly (and so do I, she was also my son's teacher. We love her).

-5; had a tooth removed today... well, that particular one had been bothering me for about half a year, so maybe things will finally get better in a few days after the pain from the removal fades.

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Listening to Pink Floyd's "Time" on headphones, and the line "Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way" seems to resonate with our current situation.

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6 I am grateful to many people and the government actually... to provide extra home nursing hours to make these 3 weeks easier.
I'm grateful that Trudeau isn't Trump and seems a bit more steadfast on what medical experts advise.
I'm grateful that I didn't have an upbringing like Michael Jackson's

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A sense of regret from my past eating habits, contributing to my rather stubborn Pancreas.

I eat healthy, exercise regularly and am of healthy weight, but have been told my glucose levels are fluctuating, currently at the "At Risk" once more, and may need Metformin to keep them down.

Thankfully, reading weight gain is not a side effect. I'd prefer to not undo that hard work.

That, and my Vitamin D deficiency would explain my persistent tiredness though.

Meh.