scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Gamers are so toxic. Humans suck

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there has NOT EVER been a SINGLE person in ALL of human history who has felt my limerent feelings as deeply and as profoundly as i do. not ONE, NOBODY has come close. they are not remotely capable. their brains can't handle it.


a lonely existence it is

Am I happy with myself?

No.
My life is good, even fate favors me... Yet I'd still say no to myself.

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At my usual 7.

-5. I was up till 4 am last night and I had a meltdown earlier today. I feel spent.

-5; I don't mean to return with a negative post but I'm not close to many people at all and don't want to just unload on them - had a meltdown today due to a long-standing issue with aggression from certain members in my family. Was trapped in that environment for a long time with no escape so couldn't calm down well. Feeling emotionally exhausted from it and there's still no escape. My dad is emotionally and mentally abusive to my mom, seems to get worse every day (used to be to me as well until I learned in adulthood to be extremely avoidant and that's not really a positive outside of the one plus of self-preservation). He's currently yelling at her and berating her as I type this and it's just so constant anymore. She does so much to appease him, probably a lot of it is for my sake so I don't have to be around even worse situations, but that compounds my awful feeling. I know there are worse things in the world but just feeling very trapped in my family situation. I want to help my mom but I *should* be employed shortly and would like to move into my own place asap (my dad is very resistant to the idea but days like today remind me why I need to stick to my convictions).

the +5 keeping my mood from -10: came home to my cat today

At my usual 7.

I can't slap a number on it either.

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Today at a 6.

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At my usual 7.

Unknown.

Maybe a few technical meta navigational difficulties.

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who f*****g cares