Maybe it's my newfound obsession with the undead. Maybe it's all those Dracula and Frankenstein stuff I've been so keen on lately. Maybe it's the fact I've played too many videogames. It may even be that Mystery Science Theatre 3000 movie "The Incredible Melting Man", but right now I am absolutely terrified. It's not a panic attack, but right now I'm actually afriad to go to sleep. No clue why, but I'm actually having some old fears pop up and scare the living s*** outta me.
This is the stupidest thing ever. For whatever reason, my coulrophobia is in high drive. I can't even write the word that describes what I'm freaking out about. I actually checked under my bed and in my closet for the thing (and of course it's not there). Why do I feel like a 5 year old again? I haven't seen a "c****" in years, and now I actually start panicking when a McDonalds comercial comes on. Gah, I feel like such a baby! I can't look out the window, because Im afraid something like "It" will be smiling back at me. What the hell?! I've just regressed 11 years in one week. Surprisingly, the Joker still doesn't bother me, but even Krusty the you-know-what makes me quesy. What do I do? I can't be some teenager shaking in her slippers over a fear I should have gotten over forever ago. In fact, the last time I did this I was probably still in kindergarten.
Sorry for being a baby (and don't say I'm not, because that's exactly how I am behaving). But seriously, help me out. I've been trying to get over this and it won't go away!
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I'm not mad, just terribly hurt.
20 Feb 2011, 12:06 am
