Girlwithaspergers wrote:
I have nothing that I look forward to waking up to. I feel like I'm just stuck living in misery with my parents forever, supposed to be their doting child with no life. I am so unhappy and I feel it's never going to get better.
This sounds pretty normal for 19. Totally normal for you to still be living with your parents. Most people don't really live independently until their 20's.
What do you do to make yourself feel better?
I have a whole list of things that I do when I feel depressed. Tagnacious's Rules for the Blues, aka, anxiety and depression:
-showers, walks, etc... to de-escalate if I feel overwhelmed.
-do something good for someone else. Maybe a random act of kindness like putting a quarter in someone's car meter.
-do something where I can watch people. This helps me see that I'm not the only one suffering.
-clean something. (It REALLY helps, but I often don't have the executive functioning skills to do so when I'm depressed.)
-get some acupuncture
-find someone who is willing to let me talk to them (this is a hard one, too.)
-herbs
-extra coffee (only for one or two days)
-Make some food that feels wonderful or take myself out to eat somewhere healthy.
-listen to Carolyn Myss when I need a kick start. Listen to Clarissa Pinkola Estes when I need to be held.
-ALWAYS follow up with the appropriate Star Trek episode for the situation.
-do Tai Chi, meditate, do yoga, etc. This is most effective as I'm on the mend. Its not available when I'm really deep in it.
-free form journaling. This helps when I can't figure out why I'm feeling so down. It also helps when I'm angry, but I often don't want to start. Its only after I'm done that it feels good.
-color. I have a mandala coloring book.