It's been a long time since I last recall signing into this site so I thought I'd check in and see if I could find some support here again. I recently experienced a seriously upsetting betrayal in my life; I felt a need to talk about it. It's something I've been trying to keep to myself and hold myself back from sharing too much about, but I know if I don't share my experience that it will tear me up inside and as such, I'd never be able to move on from it. I wasn't sure how to go about it, so I just sat in front of my computer's camera and talked for about 2 hours recording how I felt.
It's a very long story but it involves an Autism service provider that betrayed my trust in them. They abandoned me after years of working together. I thought they cared but, in the end, it turned out they were pretending to care, they lied to me so many times before I finally discovered the truth about them. I feel very strongly that they used me, that I was nothing more than another "client" that they were only pretending to care about so they could continue to get a paycheck while I suffered through being stuck in their corrupt system, and after thinking about it for the last few months or so, I couldn't hold back my feelings about them anymore. I wonder if anyone else around here has experienced something like this, and if so, how did you handle it? I'm hurt on a very deep and emotional level by the specific autism support service that mistreated me. It got so bad that I eventually broke down and told off some of their staff, I just couldn't take the abuse anymore. I feel so betrayed, and I know they manipulated me for their own personal gain. I don't know where else to go with the information I have to share. But part of why I recorded a video of me talking about these sorts of Autism related experiences is because I want to provide others with the information I know, so they hopefully can avoid being manipulated, used, abused, mistreated, etc. by service providers like the one that did those sorts of things to me. I was under so much stress for so long, and I still hurt inside after everything that happened, but I'm glad I finally know the truth. It's hard for me to explain it in a better way. Has anyone else here gone through something like this? If so, how did it affect you? Is there any advice you can share with me that may help me move on from it? And if you're feeling up to hearing more about this sort of thing, if you have the time to watch the 2 hours of video I recorded talking about it, and you don't mind the harsh language at certain points in that video, I will share the link with you. Other than that, I don't know what else to say.
03 Dec 2025, 11:47 am
