Sometimes I forget I'm autistic...

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CalicoMischief
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02 Oct 2019, 8:04 pm

And then eventually, inevitably, I am reminded that my attempts at meaningful conversation with neurotypicals always ends unsatisfactorily. It never quite leads anywhere meaningful. I was married for ten years and now that I'm divorced I have to accept that I will be alone for the rest of my life... That there is no more "us". Only me and them. I am a complete outsider. I am not capable of having a relationship with someone else unless they happened to be autistic. And I even tried dating a much older autistic man for the sake of loneliness and he didn't want to be exclusive. Why did God make autistic people? At my core, the essence of my being, I feel like a different species of human being.



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02 Oct 2019, 8:18 pm

I think that you are feeling very down tonight and are punching yourself in the face.
It's a very human thing to do, the average NT even does it from time to time.
We, auties, tend to punch ourselves much harder and much more often.



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02 Oct 2019, 8:27 pm

Hmmmm......I feel normal when I'm by myself. That is, I don't "feel autistic" when I'm by myself. Does that mean that other people are the problem??? :?