So am I. No question of me ever convincingly "passing" as NT anytime soon, if ever. And yet people are still continuously overestimating me, because my functioning level can vary, and they see me at my best and assume I'm always capable of that. Then they accuse me of not trying hard enough or not caring when I don't meet their expectations. It's extremely frustrating and demoralizing.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"