IdahoRose wrote:
I was obsessed with a former friend of mine for years. In fact, my fixation with her was one of the primary reasons why our friendship ended. Though I had a handful of friends throughout my school years, she was the one I was closest to, because we shared a common interest (she was as obsessed as I was, even though she was NT) and we spent a lot of time together outside of school. I called her all the time, and I was really clingy in both the emotional and the physical sense. To make a long story short, she found other friends who were cooler than me, I became more obsessed and possessive of her, we started getting into arguments, then... the end of the friendship.
I continued to be fixated on her for years, even though we are no longer on speaking terms. I looked up her up on Myspace and Facebook, reading over her pages. I called her home every year to wish her a happy birthday, Merry Christmas, etc. If I'd ever gotten my driver's license, I would have driven by her house often. "Drive-bys", I think that's the term people use.
I also dreamt about her frequently at night. The dreams almost always involved me going to her house and spending the night with her as though we were children again and nothing bad had happened between us.
My obsession with her ended about a month ago. I'm really happy I was finally able to let go, because I was often depressed by how much I wanted to be her friend, but she'd always ignore my offers and pretend like she never knew me.
Was this just a good friend or something more. (did you want it to be?)