I find it hard to deal with unpredictable issues at work sometimes, and I throw myself into a panic and start crying and waving my arms about. To me it is not childish, it's just a meltdown related to my ASD or ADHD or whatever I have these days. But a couple of close co-workers at work have said that I need to ''grow up'', not in those words, but they implied it, in the nicest way possible. To them it does look like I'm throwing a paddy like a child, but really it's just a panic attack. My panic attacks just aren't all breathlessness and sickness like a lot of people get when having a panic attack. My panic attacks involve more emotion, like crying and yelling.
I consider myself mature, as in responsible. I know what I want in my life, and I try to reach goals in a responsible way. For example, I could have had a boyfriend at 17-18 (I was asked on a date by a few men), but I didn't like them in that way, and I didn't want to get myself into a relationship with someone I don't have feelings for because I didn't want to make them heartbroken, so I waited until somebody will come along who I really fall in love with. And it has happened. I'm in a true, loving relationship with a man who I dearly love and we're both happy together. Now I want to move in with him, but I know I can't without finding a new job nearer to him first. I know money is an object and I know better than to give up my current job and move straight in with him and expect to live for free. He doesn't tell me that. It's just something I know, out of maturity. I want to be responsible. So I feel I am responsible in that way, which is a form of maturity.
But I can be childlike, which is not the same as being childish. I bring my teddy bear with me when I stay at my boyfriend's. I sometimes enjoy watching DVDs for preschoolers (I have brought them from HMV). I absolutely love sweets, although not sure if that is childlike or not as lots of grown-ups love sweets. I am amused by brightly-coloured objects. I like reading children's books (I can't get into adult books). And lots of other things. My boyfriend likes me this way. He says I'm eccentric, but he loves my quirks. Because I am childlike but responsible and wise at the same time, he feels he can trust me and feels secure being my boyfriend.
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