Angry at the past

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What the hell is New Math?

yeah.

I think for those of you that have had difficulties in the past.. unfortunately it is something you cannot make go away.
But as adults you can choose to accept that it has happened and then make a choice to not have it effect you now. What happened to you all was not something you had a choice in. How you react to it now, is something you have a choice over.

I am angry at the system the doctors, teachers, psychologists etc who knew I was different and was bullied yet did nothing. I am particularly angey with one psych who was asked outright do you think my daughter has Aspergers? her reply to mum "no she just has social issues". Well hello that is Asperger's. At 28 I think it has damaged me to some extent fortunately not as badly as it could have. I havfe no criminal record although did go off the rails for a while, havent been in a psych hospital and am only on a low dose of anti anxiety meds. I do however suffer depression as a result of severe bullying and am estranged from my natural father.

Instead of having a nice childhood and teenage life it sucked and my parents (mum and stepdad) said and did some really awful things as a result of not knowing I had AS. It then caused me to get into petty crime (mostly shoplifting and vandalism) at 20, 21 as I was confused and living in an adult world I was ill equipt to handle and was expected to.

I say that the past will stay behind in the past. sure we still remember the things that happend but dont let that anger you or let it get you down. I say focus on making a better today and tommorow and strive to get better everyday.

Sadly, the education system is very ignorant about things like this. They aren't trained to see any other problems other than possible abuse. My mother is a kindergarten teacher, and I had to explain to her not all autistics are nonverbal.

I'm still mad at my kindergarten teacher who told my parents that I had ADHD and that I should be put on medication. Not even close, Mrs. Brown.

I've often wondered how the heck it's possible that nobody in my family, no teacher or anybody else who knew me as a kid noticed that something was wrong and did something about it. They all noticed I was different, but it's like they were in denial, thought I'd just snap out of it one day or that it wasn't their problem that I had difficulties, so nothing was ever done to help me. I was abused, bullied, mistreated, neglected and lived in confusion, never being able to understand or predict other people's behavior.

I know that Asperger's syndrome was not known well when I was a kid, but I still wonder why they never even tried to find out what the problem was.

I used to be very angry and upset about the past, but I felt like the anger was just eating me up on the inside without really solving anything, so I figured I wasn't really helping myself by staying angry and bitter. I decided to move on and make the best of the present and the future. I can't change the past, but I'm not going to let it ruin the rest of my life.

I don't hate the teachers at my school, they were wonderful to me, except for my chemistry teacher, but that was one bad teacher out of about thirty.

The students in my school system however, other than the few friends I had, those little f@#$ers are the worst people I ever met in my entire life. They liked to pretend that they were all tough and powerful, but I always knew that they were just scared to death of me because they didn't understand my dissablity. So they felt the need to isolate me, make sure I never got to date, never got to go to any parites and ruined my high school experience. College fixed everything, I have more friends than I know what to do with, my comic is featured every week in the newspaper and I am just happy to be me for once.

But boy do those little sh@#heads piss me off! I moved out of my town, I don't plan on going to high school reunion and I hope the next time they see me is in an advertisement logo on yahoo.com for an animation firm.

I highly doubt I'm alone on this opinion toward high school.

I'm sorry you had a bad experience with your teacher.

I'm an education major and often we are told not to push kids that don't talk/ don't want to talk. Even though its traumatic, s/he was probably trying to let you be you and not push you to conform to more talkative people in class, and was also probably ignorant of AS.

When I was in elementary, when kids picked on me, I was punished for it. Punished, for THEM picking on ME.

When I was in 6th grade, I once had gotten up to throw a piece of paper away. While students were allowed to do this without disruption, the teacher walked over to me and grabbed ahold of me and threw me back into my chair. I then tried to get up and run to the principal, and she forced me back down again, grabbed the pen out of my grasp and broke it over my hand. When I told the principal after school, he called the teacher up to the office, and the teacher told the principal that I broke the pen over my own hand. Who do you think he believed? Not me.

Later in that year, the special ed teacher (this "special ed" was just a room where two or three students an hour would come in and get help with their school work) felt I couldn't get along with my peers, and she took me into her room for the rest of the year and had me sitting in a desk facing the corner. She would give me the work from my other class and just tell me to do it. No learning how, I was just supposed to do it.