What does stimming feel like to you?

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I experienced wild stims quite often some times ago. There was quite rich "repertoire" of autostimulating behaviors. There was agitation wave. It was "pleasant", somewhat "euphoric". There can be walking without purpose, walking in the circle, running, jumping, various hand movements (such as clapping, flapping), screaming, saying words (sometimes repetitive, these words were rather often "funny"), laughing... It looks as I was "really" autistic. It looks "clearly" autistic. It could be really loud

And it was irritating to my grandmother and sister. It probably could be heard outside my house. My sister could tell me to leave the house because stimming was annoying. She is significantly younger than me, has about 13 years old, I am adult.

There can be many pleasant fantasies during stimming. Movements can be done "unconsciously", "involuntarily". It appears to be caused due to some sort of overwhelming, such as by anxiety (I named "agitation waves" as "euphoria" (or "something" similar) earlier, I was somewhat "surprised" that it may be caused by anxiety), obsessions, excitation (I had some agitation after reading that Lionel Messi might had been diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, which was "beautiful" to my mentality).

It may be interesting why other people are not "stimmable". Wild stims made in agitation and "exciatation" probably looks stupid for NTs and they may think that a stimmer is a nutter or intellectually disabled person. It looks "childish" to me. I think that tendency to "profound" stims is a symptom of general otherness of mind associated with autism. But for me it is better to stim like someone with apparent autism than have depression, angry outburst or cognitive problems.

Walking without purpose may be often something like "soft stim" to me. It is pleasant and during it I often had fantasies. When harder stims occur, they may start unconsciously, but not in "public" place in my case.

It is like breathing, it is so natural for me I don't notice I am doing it. It is so natural that when I was first diagnosed last year I thought it was a autistic trait I did not have.

It is like shaking an emergency flashlight or cranking a radio. I lose power at different rates and stimming slowly recharges me or preserves equilibrium. Energy costs increase exponentially the longer I am out of my safety zone so sometimes no matter how hard I stim I still can't calm down and I go into emergency lock down.

Sometimes I feel like there's a lot of pressure building up inside of me, and self-stimulatory behavior is the only conceivable release valve.

Sometimes like letting out steam (wild waving of a hand if too impatient, quick knee bopping, clapping, rocking etc.) Sometimes steadying the nerves (pacing in circles, mumbling) Sometimes a slight energy release (fingerflicking, rubbing palms). Sometimes like grounding (spontaneous soft swaying rocking).

I seriously don´t know if it is real stimming or just the need for movement as energy release.
According to Uta Frith, stimming is just human. One theory is, that repetitive movement in humans is the body being ready to go and muscles firing away in loop, whilst the mind is otherwise occupied.
Autistic stimming should be unconcious or absorbing.
I think, I always rocked slightly during concentration and clapped in enthusiasm, but then, I am "the type" who needs to move a lot.

Half the time, I'm not even aware I'm doing it but when I'm aware, it is pleasurable. If a family member sees me doing it, they stop me. That's VERY annoying.

1. Before I stim it feels like everything inside of me is going to explode and I can't take it anymore.
- It feels relieving and I don't feel like I'm boiling inside. The extreme pressure that's building up inside of me subsides.

2. When I'm relaxed
-It feels like pure goodness. I can feel all the little tingles in my fingers when I flap or stick my hand out the window. I don't think I can describe it either, OP. It feels like the greatest thing in the world.