psych wrote:
I havent ever counted - i just repeat an action until i feel satisfied.
Me too. Usually it has to do with evening things out. Like if I scratch my arm I have to scratch the other in the same place on the other side.
"Sometimes i make a point of not following a compulsion - this is part of a recovery program."
Ack, me too. I think if I hadn't started resisting urges really early on, it would have gotten really bad. But when I was a little kid there was a point where I just got sick of it, because I remember that if I turned in one direction, I would have to turn in the other, and if I pulled up one sock I'd have to pull up the other, even if it meant pushing it down first so I could get the full feeling of pulling it up. But then I would have to push the other one down too. And it was just driving me nuts because it never ended, so I guess I just got fed up and ended it, lol. I have no patience, even for myself.
But even now if something rubs one way on my skin I usually have to rub it back, or rub it until it feels like it's been rubbed equally in all directions..
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