Why don't I want to share my obsessions with people?

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Lately I am noticing I have two catogories for my special intrests. Special intrests that I feel comfortable sharing with other people and catogories I don't feel comfortable sharing with others. For instance, my special intrest for years were meerkats and Lion King. As an adult, veternary and the Sonic the hedgehog fandom have been included.

Anyway, when people are nice about my meerkat obsession, I am happy to share it with them. But heaven forbid someone find out my other special intrest, Sonic the hedgehog. I broke the ice to my mom that it was my newest special intrest and I think she was getting the idea anyway.

But whenever it gets brought up, I quickly change the subject to kitsunes or the order of Erinaceinae (sorry RoBUTTnick, but Sonic is not a rodent). I just feel really weird and awkard whenever it comes up. I don't like sharing my veternary medicine obsession with her either but I think it stems from her not believing that I really could be a vet myself and being very harsh about my goal in the past. Maybe if she hadn't told me to basicaly give up on it and focus on being a vet tech becuase my math skills were so bad, I might have actualy had some form of modivation in school...and in life.

But why am I so reluctant to dicuss blue hedgehogs with her? I'm reluctant to join any fan fourms becuase of my expirence on a Lion King one where I was horribly cyber bullied. I talk about Sonic all the time online on Deviant Art anyway. But heaven forbid someone in real life find out about my obsession.

Anyway, lately I find I don't even want to share my meerkat obsession with anyone. Why is this?

I don't like sharing my obsessions with people because I know they'll think I'm crazy. Some more so than others, but that's the general idea.

I don't like sharing a whole lot of interests with people out of fear that they'll just laugh at me. Plus there's awkwardness when it comes to other people sharing the same interests as you and having to talk to them about it.

Not much of a sharer myself, but if a subject comes up I will talk about them, but sometimes it's hard to feel like you're the only one who sees the beauty in something. I don't even mind when people pick on me about my interests because at least they are acknowledging them and giving me their thoughts. What's worse is just being ignored or getting a "that's nice" response.