Willard wrote:
I've always said, it's quite logical to expect people who are easily overwhelmed by sudden changes in the environment or the type, manner and density of sensory stimuli to keep as organized as possible and stick to strict routines, because the more stable you keep the things you do have control over, the fewer stressful surprises you have to deal with.
Willard has said exactly how I feel. When my living situation and my things are organized, I feel less anxious because at least in that one environment I know I have controlled my situation and I know where things physically are.
On the other hand, when I am anxious about other stuff that has happened, I can't, in fact, do any cleaning or organizing. You can always tell if I've had a particularly stressful, upsetting day or week just in general, by looking around my apartment -- it will be much messier, because I fall to pieces and can't even START to clean or keep up with anything.
Which in turn makes me even more anxious and depressed. My best functioning definitely happens when I've got my apartment orderly. Yet I can only do that when...I'm functioning well to begin with. A very awkward chicken and egg situation for me.
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