Am I strange for an Aspie?

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Hey eveyone,

I have been diagnosed with Aspergers about 8-9yrs ago. I am now 18 turning 19 in a few monthes.

In all the reading I have done on many forums no Apsie seems to be a disconnected, disinterested, lazy?, slobbish, bored, can't be bothered, cannot set nor keep routines (above a day), have no interest or obsession in anything specific. Am I just strange for an Aspie?

I don't cry easily and when people upset me enough I just hit them (At school this got me in trouble a lot) unfortunately despite my lack of exercise I am extremely strong and a single punch knocks most people in next fornight (Which is not good, not do I like it).

I am rambling a bit here I am unsure what my point is now (30 mins later I have forgotten the original reason for posting this. oh well) I also need food, a lot of food (Despite no exercising) and when I dont get it I go mental, angry, frustrated and generaly just lash out at anyone and everyone. I also sleep a little but not much 4-6hrs a night at most, yet I am fine. Strangely when I get a lot of sleep 8-12hrs I falls to pieces and get very "spaced-out" in the head and feel strange. Come to think of it I feel "spaced-out" a lot.

I am unsure what to do about any of these issues (IF there are any to begin with), I am unsure if I am unusual for an Aspie, Infact I am unsure of just about everything.

Thanks for reading this. I cannot quite remember all I rambled on about so if I had any problem (Which I am sure I attemped to draw some manner of attention too) any help is appreciated. If you have any comments and advice anything at all to share to help me I would value it.

Thankyou for reading this novella

Protokohl,

Last edited by B19 on 03 Feb 2017, 6:24 pm, edited 1 time in total.: identifying content removed at OP's request

"In all the reading I have done on many forums no Apsie seems to be a disconnected, disinterested, lazy?, slobbish, bored, can't be bothered, cannot set nor keep routines (above a day), have no interest or obsession in anything specific. Am I just strange for an Aspie?"

It sounds like a combination of typical aspie executive dysfunction and maybe some depression (lack of interest). I have found omega-3 very beneficial for my mood. Anyway, you sound like a typical aspie to me.

The aggression is not typical for an Aspie and more likely reflects the aggression that was leveled at you.

Being an Aspie won't protect from mental disorders. The violence toward you as a child sounds awful. Can you get treatment?

I have said on here before that ASD is more a matter of opinion than a matter of fact. There is no way to prove any of it.

Your 8/9-year-old diagnosis may need to be re-considered - between the ages of 10 and 19, you will have changed/matured at a faster rate than at almost any other stage in your life.

But the professional view is that Asperger's can be identified with a high degree of certainty, and that Asperger's is for life.

I don't believe that the 'slobbishness' that you describe is typical of Asperger's - I think that Aspies are more inclined towards over-fastidiousness than slobbishness. But, I repeat, most autism diagnoses are more a matter of opinion than a matter of fact.

Some of the characteristics which you describe could easily be attributed to AD(H)D. And it seems likely that your mother was simply unable to instil in you the routines which you now need.

It seems to me that you might benefit from spending some time living in some kind of housing scheme where you can be taught to look after yourself better. I'm not sure which country you live in, so I have no idea about whether or not such a place to live might or might not be available.

You are clearly well aware that you are in need of some kind of help, and I think you should go and talk to anybody you can find (doctors, social workers, counsellors, voluntary organisations etc etc). I wish you well.

I am a pretty messy person too. I used to live in an apartment that was a disaster and now my room is only clean when I get all OCD and have to make it that way.

Just last year, I had all my clothes in buckets in my room with no furniture and I had broken computer parts and trash all over the place, along with food and medicine in baggies. My closet had all moldy papers in it and I had dirty underpants/socks everywhere. One time I even found spiders crawling on a tomato that was stuck to an old shoe.

I'm compulsively tidy - to the point of driving my wife nuts because I'm always putting things away before she's done with them.

I like everything "just so" and in it's place.

Holy s**t you need to change your life.

All the best to you.

This all sounds fairly aspie-ish to me. At least you have your degree to work towards. That might provide some structure later in the form of a job but if you'd like your environment to improve a large part of that will be getting healthier. Improving your health really does impact on your surroundings. Getting started and maintaining your interest are easier said than done though. Good luck with it.

Hey Protokohl, are you in Sydney?

Not sure how to multiquote on this forum.

wblastyn: Thanks for that. Never thought of Executive Dysfunction. Also I have started incorporating omega-3 into my morning vitamins/meds and will see how that goes over the next few weeks.

Waterfalls: Well its good to have affirmation that my aggression was not due to my aspie nature but rather to my mother, as I had already suspected. As to treatment? I have found little use for counselor, support networks etc. Truth be told I rang kids helpline several years ago and they suggested that when I start to get angry my Grandmother should talk to me about gory movies o.O I haven't called back since. I have instead found my own way of dealing with it, I used to meditate and search myself eventually I just sorta stopped caring about that aspect of my life and have since then moved on fairly well.

MrGrumpy: Your answer intrigued me and upon discussing it with my Grandmother we are now seeking a re-diagnosis as over the years problems may have dissipated and others may have cropped up.

Girlwithaspergers & eggheadjr: Thanks for the input!

Dreycrux: Thanks! I think...

Dan_Undiagnosed: True at least I have my degree to work towards. Getting healithier is a start however finding the starting point is key, and yes, its easier said than done. Also I don't live in Sydney I live nearly 10hrs away . Though was guessing I live in Australia a guess? Is it visible on my Public Account page? Or was it simply because I go to TAFE?

Welcome to WP Protokohl!

Don't worry, where you live is not visible. It was most likely just a guess.

I hope you are able to find ways to improve. I'm not an expert, but I sounds like there is a combination of things going on for you, such as Aspergers, the abuse from your childhood maybe also leading to depression as well as having other effects too.
Good luck!

Yeah dude, Ive had to explain what tafe is as well before. If you were in Sydney Iwas gonna try and give some ideas about places to work out that might be fun. Never mind. One of the best things to start with is just walking for half an hour each day. Eventually you can add some tougher stuff like squats, push ups and sit ups. Youd be surprised how tough it is to do as many as you can for 20 seconds, pause for 20 seconds then go again. Repeat this process til uouve done it 3 times.