I'm so sorry to hear of your plight, and I send all good wishes that you can beat this again. I don't know you at all, but I gather you've beaten it before; that alone tells me you are strong.
Crying a lot doesn't mean you're not strong, it just means you're in touch with your feelings and can let them out -- crying can be a very necessary venting of emotion, and very cathartic. You can cry and still have what it takes to face what you have to face. You can do it. This is horrible and it's unfair and miserable, but take one step at a time. You can do this, just hang in there and keep putting one foot in front of the other, figuratively.
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If you have a problem with something I post, something I believe, something I do or say, something in my sig, or something I am stupid enough to share that I'm struggling with and being caused pain by -- TELL ME TO MY FACE so that I can defend myself, instead of see you make a mockery of or a dig about it later.
On the other hand, friends will never need an explanation, and enemies bent on disliking me will never accept one.
ASD Level 1, PTSD. Plus anxiety with panic attacks, mild sub-clinical situational depression -- and a massive case of sheer freakin' BURNOUT.
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