I am not good with connecting with people on deeper levels, past the learned and rehearsed social interactions. So, I only have a couple friends, and really only 1 person I can call an actual friend who would come at my time of need.
But I am even bored with him, I just try my best to take part in his interests and then do my own thing when I'm alone. It's just nice to have someone to do activities with sometimes, that's the main thing for me.
But I do feel like I want friends and envy people with lots of friends, but I just don't "get it." I feel like I'm just observing them without fully understanding how they are connecting. And in the end, I realize that I just prefer to be alone...
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