I',m a bit worried...today is first intake appointment

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It's just weighing on me. It's a lot of things swirling through my head. I dunno, it's very hard to put into words or thoughts. It's one of those times that thoughts appear in my head but refuse to settle into a language for definition or clarification.

Basically, I'm just a jumble this morning and very unfocused but trying to focus on getting the things I must get done today, done today.

eidt: Who's this Love astrologer crap that keeps spamming the forum?
eidt again: Wow...2.5 pages of this Islamic dude/dudette.......

Don´t open it! You don´t know, what crap, you´re letting in.

Don't open what? I'm confused.....

The islamic astrologer crap on "General Discussion"

Robots keep spamming the site in the wee hours of the mourning each day. Usually just the "general autism" subforum. Some hapless moderator must have to delete them by dozens each day.

(sigh)

Thats why we have to those captchas when we post (so they know that you're not a robot).

Oh....I never open that crap. I actually find it offensive. They definitely prey on the superstitious. And, the superstitious abound.

And, outside of the crappy pictures sometimes, I prefer the captcha thingy just for that reason.

Good luck on your intake meeting!

Thank you very much. I hadn't hear from you in a while and thought I had done what I have always done. Tick someone off unintentionally. Really good to hear from you and it means a lot for your good wishes. I am most afraid that I'm what ASPartofme calls the 'uncanny valley' and get pushed off. Very stressed at the moment.....Wife is being very supportive though.

What IS an "intake" meeting?

Hehe. Never. You are fine. I have been a little busy lately. That is all.

I believe that you are quite prepared for today's meeting with your provider(s). Just relax as best you can and remember to take those lists of characteristics and examples with you; or, at least, remember them well.

Some autism clinicians and diagnosticians call their initial meetings with clients (patients) an "intake visit." It implies that there would be at least one meeting to accomplish a diagnosis.

I can tell you what I've done so far. My terminology may be off though. Here is the course of events:
1) Doctor sent me 14 page questionairre for me to fill out.
2) Go to doctor today

Here is what I am assuming: She will perform a review of the material and speak with me. Then I assume there will be some sort of recommendation. Here is where I go nuts...:
a) I will be seen and they will say, nope, no way....you got something else, thank you for your time
b) Yeah, you seem that way, but it's really not and you just have some symptoms but, keep trying...somewhere else.....
c) What the hell is wrong with you? Go, get out, get your act together you whiny pup!!

Yeah, I tend to blow things up in my mind.

Thank you for that.

I am taking my mini-bio on USB drive. My list of weirdnesses is cemented in my head. My wife is going with me. I know that the meltdown in Shekou will be discussed. That will be very uncomfortable. I re-live those moments in clear detail (from my point of view though) and it's still embarrassing to think I did that and have done so in other situations. Just not as bad. But, Shekou was a wake up call.

I feel the same way as you do about my intake. The whole list was basically my thoughts exactly. I will be thinking about you today.

No matter what happens, don't let them make you think that you're imagining things or being silly for wanting answers.

It seems that you are as prepared as I believed. We all have Shekous in our past experiences. Besides, it is good to describe one extreme example of severity. Twenty or thirty, on the other hand.... Hehe.

Thank you You too. It's just that when I'm in any authority figure judging me position, I get really tense and tend to go into "Let's please this person" mode. I feel compelled to answer things when asked. And, I feel compelled to really put a fine point on things too. And, I am prepared (as well as could be) for the visit. So, that means it will not be a typical day when I am blindsided.

And, in my fashion, I've already played this out a thousand times in my head trying to practice conversations, try to not get blindsided, those type of things that is my daily life. It is exhausting to have to do that every day just for a one hour visit.

Yeah...I get that. But it's still uncomfortable.And, the mini-meltdowns are happening more frequently. It always comes when I'm out and about and dealing with the crush of people and mass transit. As long as I'm not involved with people, I'm doing ok. And, I'm worried about being overly prepared. For three months all I've had to really think about is codifying what I feel and experienced and it's all just pouring out of me lately. I've communicated more here and on GRASP than I have in two years of regular living.

And, my words may seem erudite and clean here or on GRASP, but it's a lot of thought and prep just for anything. Inside my head, it's like a sack of cats most times as I try to juggle the incoming stimuli.

Well, I think my words seem erudite and clean.