Losing my trademark intellectual aspie "steeliness"

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I always think, and can't imagine life without thinking, but I'm having more feelings lately to go with the thinking. It's a two-month-long pattern, so I know it is not my menstrual cycle. My thought processes have less logical, steely aspie rationalism and more fluid, feminine, symbolic, emotional, neurotypical qualities. I am preoccupied with religion. Books have a greater capacity to move, cheer, or bother me. I watched the news and cried (THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE). Think Hannah Arendt morphing into Virginia Woolf.

I still act autistic, I still have intense and narrow interests, and I'm still a touch aloof, but I'm having a serious intrusion of NT emotionalism. I'm sure it has benefits (I'm more compassionate, less judgmental), but it is STRANGE.

Love, The Weepy Aspie

Emotion and reason are symbiotic. You've really never been without emotion; you have merely become more emotionally self-aware. Without emotion, you would not have anything motivating you to think about what you think about. Emotion provides the motivation and the goal; reason tells us how to get there.

Sounds familier. I blame Wrong Planet.

My whole life had worked out a pattern of response to cold and irrational world, and it worked.

Wrong Planet ruined my life, I started seeing some people, as exceptions.

I rationlized, they only share my condition, and it is better to discover you are not the only one.

Then I would have undefined inturnal things, feelings I hear they are called.

I accepted that, it might just be empaty run amuck.

The shock came when it was non spectrum people, in real life.

I am dealing with more of them, managing it, and even like them.

I have always been against treatment, but perhaps I should go to a party and socialize.

looking at your age i would say that it is the period cycle and becoming an adult female.... i'd get weepy at times as well.... you get it under control once you get used to it.... now the thing that i had bad when i went through puberty was, if someone got me mad during those over emotional stages, i also had the tendency to violence (i tried to strangle my lil sis when i was 13)... i had to learn to stay away or warn people around me when i felt those days approach (and i could usually tell).

i say kick it down to hormones... they are all out of wack right now as it is.

Neuroscientist Antonio Damasio has argued in his book Descartes's Error that emotion is a vital part of thinking, without emotions we couldn't make decisions, thus overturning the old assumption that reason and emotion were opposing forces with reason being our "superior" human side and emotion being our "vulgar" animalistic side. As you said, no emotion = no motivation. People that have brain damage that disturbs the connection between the limbic system and the prefrontal cortex have problems with planning and decision-making.

MissPickwickian, you seem disturbed. I wouldn't qualify those emotions as "unautistic". There is nothing wrong so much that you are thinking too much. Perhaps, that is where your emotions arose? I know even if I am not claiming any of the emotional symptoms (happy, sad, anger, fear, etc.), there is some sense of these emotions behind my thoughts. Perhaps, you weren't identifying with these emotions? I do not identify, that is the reason for my coldness, but I still feel something.

Yes. I notice that all my thoughts are driven by an underlying emotion, it is just not conventional emotion. To deny that I have emotions would go against reason itself.

You're becoming an adult. It's normal. Enjoy.

Do you really bite?

Nay. David Copperfield reference.