Need input from people who have DID

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I was diagnosed with depersonalization disorder. I wonder if I may have a certain type of dissociative identity disorder as well. (I've read that DPD can be caused by DID).

Anyhow, is it normal to talk to yourself all the time? Is this a symptom of DID, or is it just normal?
I started this up when I was a Christian. I believed that God could hear my thoughts and I would talk to Him in my head. I am no longer a Christian (actually I'm closer to being an atheist), and I no longer believe that God can hear my thoughts. The problem is that I still talk to myself.

Also, this may just be an effect of depersonalization disorder, but my sense of self is fractured. When I say the words "I" and "me" it just doesn't feel right. I used to refer to myself as "we" instead of "I".

In the past, I have very much receded into my "own little world". I have also experienced great childhood trauma.

Does this sound like Dissociative Identity Disorder to anyone?

Aspies often talk to themselves.

I have friends with DID. They have actual different selves inside them, who are like completely different people with different personalities, and they often can't control when one of these selves will take over the body. The other selves are inside the body, interacting with each other.

What you are describing sounds like Aspie things. I talk to myself all the time. My sense of self is fragmented - but that is because, as an Aspie, I see the details and not the whole, and so I don't have a sense of myself as a whole. I only see all the separate details of myself. I do also retreat into my own little world, which is apparently an Aspie thing, and also can be the result of childhood trauma. Childhood trauma often causes dissociation, of which depersonalisation is a part, but that is different from dissociative identity disorder. I dissociate, and what you are describing sounds like it could be Aspie things, and it could be dissociation, but it doesn't sound to me like actual DID (going from what I know of my friends with DID, at least).

Yeah, that's not actual DID. If you had that, you'd be missing gaps in your memory, from where your alters were in control.

Talking to yourself can actually be a good thing. You're verbalizing your thoughts to make them more concrete; it probably helps you think.

I've been diagnosed with DID, schizoaffective disorder, autism, anxiety, depression, dependent personality disorder- pretty much everything in the DSM. I used to have around 10 personalities and some I was aware of and others I would "lose time." My DID is not typical because the personalities are not typical. Some think it is more part of the schizoaffective disorder than true DID because of it. I have a 2 year old personality, a 5 year old, a Republican man personality who is 50 years old (I am a Democrat by the way and 25 and I am a woman), an alien personality who spoke and writes in a completely different language, a bird personality that can't speak English but can write English- makes a lot of sense, doesn't it but that one might not be part of the DID because I am totally aware when I "switch" into that "personality", 87 year old woman, a crazy personality that thought she was being controlled by aliens (we integrated though- how sad), I can't remember the rest but there are more. Talking to yourself has nothing to do with DID but I talk to myself all the time and to the government and aliens. Not voices but thought insertion. How fun! I'm just plain nuts!

I don't feel alone either. I'm just very introverted; I don't feel like anything's missing when no one's around.

That doesn't sound like DID. DID is suppose to either have alters or have periods of withdrawl or spacing/zoning out. I don't have a DID diagnosis yet but my psych said she thought I might have it. I fought her on that one but then after I read about it realized I've been spacing out since childhood.

Spacing out isn't DID. That's just plain dissociation. Everybody dissociates sometimes (it's called "daydreaming"); if you do it too much and/or uncontrollably, then that would be either depersonalization disorder or dissociative disorder NOS. DID requires alters.