Does anyone have a strong special interest in music.......

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But doesn't share it with many people?

I seem to be the kind of person that will play the crap out of my keyboard and fiddle or blast some music on but I just don't share it so much publicly. I met another guy on the internet that's just like this. When I forced him to show me what he knew on the piano, I was enamored. The talent he puts forth but doesn't share so publicly. He even warned me to be dissappointed. But after seeing much of his stuff, I felt like I was communicating with a musical celebrity.

I was wondering if this is normal for most of us. To be strongly talented in some areas...yet not share that talent or that interest. Sometimes I wonder if our music industry is too critical about how we're suppose to be. I'm not sure if I'm getting my message across the right way but I do wonder about how hard most people are on eachother whenever it comes to the means of artistic endeavor.

I used to be so shy I wouldn't share my piano playing with my mother. Every time I heard her open the door I would slam the piano shut.

I play guitar and make sound collage. I've never been in a band despite wanting to. I suck at the networking/meetup stuff so I've never had more than 2 or 3 opportunities to click with other players. (I play heavy electric guitar, so the music I'd want to make requires a bassist and drummer; there's only so much I can do just noodling by myself at home.) The few jam sessions I was invited to I didn't jibe fast enough to be invited back; it takes me awhile to adjust to others before I can show my mettle.
I'm no prodigy though. My guitar playing is rather mediocre, a rare state of affairs for an Aspie. I know I could shine in a situation where I had a music studio, a patient tech dude helping me record, and some pliable studio musicians. Composition would be my strong suit if I had the other players lined up. But as I said social (and financial) woes hold me back.
People find my sound collages bizarre. Four out of five listeners absolutely hate it. The fifth calls me a genius.

I think I understand that.

I have a writing talent(well I'm not sure if it's a talent... it's something I do) that I get into about roughly twice a year. I might disappear for about a month and I'll usually be writing out more to this story that I've been banging out in my head for over 15 years now. I've seldom ever revealed any of my writings. I think I only had something of it posted once on a different forum many years. Got some good comments... but I've never made anything public about it since. (Well there was the game thing too...)
I think I just prefer not to share anything since it'll always appear incomplete to me and I guess I worry about attracting fans if I cannot deliver. My muse of writing only comes around twice a year anyway.

That's my case as well. With an interest in music and general, it's all I'll ever talk about - about other bands' music, about instruments, sounds, etc... but I never talk about my playing because I feel as if nobody cares.

I kind of warn people to be disappointed with my playing. That might just be a self-confidence thing. I'm pretty much terrified to play in front of a crowd. Yet, I ended up playing in my school's jazz band (sheet music, sight-reading), playing a live guitar solo (just me, including some shredding - part of an act/performance) in front of a large audience three days in a row, and playing in my church's band. And a few other musical endeavors here and there. Everyone's surprised when I tell them I've only been playing for two years.

With the exception of the jazz band, most other musicians I talk to have been sort of amazed at how much music theory and talent (improvisation) I had. Some of them tell me to go out and find a band already. Lol, I'd give anything to be in one, but unfortunately I don't have enough of a network of people to find one. Regarding the jazz band, I think I was the only one there without lessons. I wasn't really on top of it all, but probably the only one who'd been playing for only two years.

Just as with the case of how apparently I'm smart (I personally still think I'm stupid, but that goes back to self-esteem), I think I'm pretty bad and tend to downplay what I can do, then end up wow'ing people.

I love to draw but I hate sharing my work with people. Before I got on meds, I would go to great and ridiculous lengths to make sure no one saw any of my drawings. For example, I'd always draw hunched over with my free hand circled around the outside of the paper, forming a 'barrier'.

I'm a little more relaxed about it these days (I show my mom and brother my work), but if I'm not 100% content with a drawing, I feel like flipping out if anyone sees it.

Music was my life for ages. I've never really been a sharer, s'just something I never knew how to do in a socially acceptable way. Nowadays I have a weak interest in music that I don't really share with anyone.