Okay, so this is something that has been on my mind a lot since I got my diagnosis: I had two really good friendships that ended recently (one this year, the other last year, two guys, both are 24 years old). Often I felt I could be myself with them and had lots of fun; however, I get quite emotional at times since I pick up a lot of emotions from my environment - also, sensory overload - and sometimes they didn't understand why I was reacting the way I was. They both expressed I had some "weird, egocentric" things and "random, odd" reactions to some things, that they tried to accept nevertheless I think, but eventually I got so overwhelmed with the group dynamics plus my own stuff that I told them I can only meet them separately, not the three of us together. They didn't take it well, actually I only spoke to one of them once since. With the other guy we fell out recently, over similar issues. (I once had a meltdown when I was with them, they totally didn't understand what was going on and neither did I at the time.)
My question is, do you think there is any point in trying to mend things with them? I miss them a lot as I don't have many close friends - although I do have others, but we are not as close. Or should I just leave it? I am angry because maybe if I had understood myself better at the time, we would still be friends. On the other hand, I don't know what to tell them and how... I am not sure they would understand what it means to live with Aspergers, how difficult it is for me. I tried to explain to them before, using just my own concepts - just how I felt, since I myself didn't know at the time why it was, it is a weird situation - but I know they didn't get it, they were probably thinking it is something I chose.
Anyone has been in similar situation?
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Being obsessed with Asperger's Syndrome is a very Escherian place to be at right now.
03 May 2018, 11:27 am
