No, really.
Anxiety makes me feel more alive and moving than frozen or confused, let alone afraid or worried into overthinking and overwhelm.
Unlike most autistics in general, I don't have a surplus of it.
Overtime, unlike however trauma supposed to work when left alone, I get even less of it.
Sure it's a dream come true for some autistics -- but not me.
... Welp, at least I'm not addicted. Not my poison of choice, unlike some allistics that are known for it.
As someone who experiences lower than average baseline anxiety (even compared to NTs), it's boring.
Like almost nothing shocks me. Not even possibly slipping into danger and harm.
Not even the thought and idea that I may end up slipping into trapping myself alone with no means of help.
I can literally just -- go to a party, shamelessly play around people, try to out drink them, enjoy the whole thing...
... Then nothing because it may bore me.
At worst, I'll just get sensory and mental stress.
None of the mental and emotional "anxiety".
Walk at night alone in the dark no problem. The only thing I can look forward to was passively waiting for someone trying to target me.
My mindset is very different from most people who tries to walk alone in the dark: their anxiety will hold them back in a confrontation. Mine does the opposite -- envoking anxiety is akin to giving me a dare to go at it.