I don't want to be autistic anymore

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I'm dx since more than 5 years now and until now I was kind of happy with the label, because it explained me just fine and made sence to me. I have nearly 30 books on ASD at home, read a lot about it, have autistic friends, write here about it and so on.
But more and more I just don't want to be autistic anymore.

I could explain it, the trouble with the diagnosis and so on, but I don't know if this helps at the moment.
I just don't want to be autistic right now, at least not having the label anymore...!

Last edited by Raziel on 28 Sep 2012, 3:05 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Is it because of how it makes you feel about yourself or how other people feel about you?

Yeah been there.

I never wanted to be Aspie to begin with, I just look at everyone else around me having most social skills that come naturally to them, and it kills me on the inside.

I just wish there was some sort of way to make me more social and say the right things in social situations, without involving alcohol and illegal drugs. I just wish there was some sort of....not a cure, but something to change the way I interact, because I know it's nearly impossible for me to do it myself. I want something to change me where I can be more socially confident naturally, without appearing odd or false to other people. I don't mind if any of my other symptoms don't get treated, but I would love nothing more than my poor social skills to be treated.

It should be able to be done. I mean, I'm on the pill to help with my periods, and that has worked miracles; no side effects, reduced the pains to a bearable level, and made my periods more manageable. I think there should be the same thing with social skills, too. Then I WILL be happy, and I'll be on my knees thanking the clever person who made this wish come true. Obviously I'm not clever enough to make a treatment myself, I wouldn't even know how to start....

Last edited by Joe90 on 28 Sep 2012, 3:45 pm, edited 1 time in total.

A label is a label, it's what you make of it that counts.

I'm not sure but propably both.
I feel like an alien with it.
When I tell people I have a ticdisorder or depressions, I'm still considered as "normal", even with ADD/ADHD people are, but even Bipolar is right on the edge and ASD is "just strange" in the eyes of most people.
And I also feel with it like it.
There is like a wall between me and the rest of the world.

Last edited by Raziel on 28 Sep 2012, 6:56 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Mirroring a piece of advice that was given in another thread, perhaps you need to 'take a break from autism' for a while, so to speak.

By this, I don't mean that you stop acting autistic, or ignore that you have it, or anything silly like that.

No, I mean that you could keep your autism a private thing for a while. You'll only discuss it with people to whom it's relevant, such as perhaps any professionals (psychologists/psychiatrists) you may encounter, and also loved ones like relatives and friends for as far as they're understanding toward your autism.
You don't have to explain your behaviour as being 'autistic' to most people you encounter. You can settle with an explanation like 'tics' and 'disorder' like you describe in your opening post.
Maybe even take a short break from WrongPlanet. Not that I'd be glad to see you go, far from it, but this forum can be quite confronting when you're feeling negative about your autism. Believe me, I have experienced that in the past myself. Occasional lurking is always good, but perhaps it's better to not submerse yourself in the topic of autism right at this juncture in your life.

Good luck.

Last edited by CyclopsSummers on 29 Sep 2012, 12:53 am, edited 2 times in total.

There are weeks when I have daily problems with this; one day I like my AS because of the remarkable intellectual things it makes me capable of (borderline-eidetic auditory memory for example) and other days, particularly when I've struggled with some social situation or had a routine upset, I'd give anything to make it go away. On days like that, the easiest thing to do is get away from it, do something or go somewhere that has absolutely nothing to do with AS and won't remind you of it; read a favourite story (as long as the protagonist doesn't have AS!) go out walking, have a conversation with a friend who makes socialising easy, just don't focus on the AS for a while, and pretty soon you'll find something good about it and wonder why you were so bothered with the label anyway.

I agree thinking about autism, just makes you more anxious. Forgetting about it all together has worked well for me before. Take a vacation .

I cured myself. Contact me if you're interested, I'll answer tomorrow. It's more of highly effective treatment than a cure, since it only lasts several weeks per dose, but be aware that it's not even remotely legal. It hasn't been legal for over a century in the US, and it's probably not going to get any less illegal any time soon. If you're not interested then that means you're closed-minded, so it will be no real loss to mankind.

This is probably a phase in self-acceptance. Like pretty much everyone said, taking a vacation might help.