Do you ever feel revengeful or cynical??

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Hey all,

Wondering if you ever feel like revenge seeking against people who constantly make you feel worthless? My family tell me that I'm a f-wit and retarded and I feel like revenge is something that I really want to consider. It not in my nature but I feel it's my only way of making myself heard as I say and express that I'm upset and suicidal and have self harmed and attempted suicide many times in the last couple of years but they still do it and I don't even get the respect as they do this behind my back and deny it and they send people to call me names even at 3am in public places. Would these things make you want to seek revenge? Would you go against your morals if you were treated this way? To make it worse they told everybody they possibly could my secrets and they felt it was their entitlement to go and tell everyone that I have ASD without even asking me first or how I'd feel about it. Let me know your thoughts.

The majority of my past self does consist of me being cynical and vengeful.

And that's even under a relatively more forgiving circumstances.




Had I've been in your position, I would've reacted differently.

Because I have a personally different moral code.
With a different means to offset unpleasant emotions, other ways to navigate around situations and dynamics.

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Cynical, Yes. Revengeful, no.

I get that way sometimes, but I feel better when I focus on making something good.

I watch a bit of Aaron Clarey / a***hole Consulting when I'm feeling that way - then I get a bit of a reminder that I'm not the only one who sees it.

We're pretty much unthinking instinctual animals, and if anything is slightly different we play dominance games to take away that other thing's power. We like to 'think' we're thinking, it's flattery when someone makes us feel that way, but thinking - even reading in the day and age of Facebook, Twitter, ant TikTok - is a weird thing for weird people.

Idiocracy comes to mind quite often.

So yes - your life will be wasted by mostly useless people and you'll find out that even 3rd grade vocabulary often is aiming too high if what you're saying has any first-principals logic in it rather than simply parroting something you saw on TV.

As for cyncial. I'm a really cynical person so yes i'm cynical. AS for revengeful. Yes I do seek revenge when i feel really wronged. Idk I might have like a conduct disorder or something.