FWIW to the OP:
I used to have these thoughts in the past, 9+ years ago. But they were more along the lines of what I might do with one in a very dark moment and why I shouldn't ever buy/own one in order to not create even the possibility for that situation to occur.
I haven't had thoughts like those in ~9ish years since learning how to treat my depression/anxiety/asd symptoms etc. If I felt inclined to shoot one, or own one, I think I'd be totally fine. There IS a firearms instructor in the extended family, as mentioned above, and they could teach me to shoot properly/technically. I don't think I'd have great difficulties - I was always a decent shot with a paintball gun and a damned marksman with a pellet rifle. BUT, I'm not all That interested Nor do I have time for even more hobbies.. lol I have so many sporting goods and things I haven't been able to make the time to use in soooo long, there's no sense in adding another expensive hobby to the mix. Might go to a local range with my sister in law sometime, though. She's a RN and has gone a few times just to blow off some steam shooting up paper targets - says it's a blast! Kinda jealy of my best friend that fired a 50 cal desert eagle hand cannon at some range in Lost Wages, Nevada. That'd be cool.
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for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.