I keep asking myself and I can never really understand myself as to why I have these worries. I remember as a kid worrying about having a heart attack, then as an early 20 year old having an epileptic seizure (even though I am not epileptic and don't have a family history of epilepsy) which was one of the reasons why I started having panic attacks.
I've got parents in their late 50s/early 60s who appear un-concerned and less worried about their health and here I am in my early 30s having these almost obsessive concerns about what might happen to my health years from now. I mean I'm not overweight, I don't smoke, I walk to work, and so what have I got to be worried about ?
I seem to think one of the reasons that are driving my concerns is that I hear of isolated stories of people in their 30s and 40s having heart attacks and other types of problems even though they showed no signs of being at risk as they look fit and exercise and then all of a sudden they get hit with a heart attack and I seem to think it is the suddenness of it that kind of freaks me out.
I seem to think that if a crystal ball showed me what day, time and age I were to pass away and what the cause was then I probably would feel quite glad about it as it would reassure me that I don't have to worry about it anymore because I would know it maybe a long way off in the future and I can just relax and not think about it anymore.