I need my friends. It can be VERY HARD to live in a group home, it also difficult to deal with the people that work here & have to deal with my sister too, she thinks she Miss Know It All, she doesn't realize she making things so much more worse for me, she acting like she more important than me, she don't care where I am, she really don't know about group homes & it can be worse for an Autism person. She don't know how lucky she is, she have body pains too & more bad problems, but she was living in a house, a great house, she wasn't living with 5 people, she has her dog, she can buy her own food, eat what she wants & when she wants to eat. She can go out, she knows how to drive, she has friends to help her. She found an apartment for herself. I need to find an apartment for me, I don't want her to find me an apartment, she found my last apartment, I didn't like it, I told her no about the apartment, she got very mad at me, that was when we were grieving our mother & our aunt that died 6 months earlier that was over 11 years ago, it took me alot of energy & strength to said no to her, but she didn't care, she wanted to get her way. I should move out first, I been living a NIGHTMARE, living here has been the very worse experience of my life, there are ok times here too, I made friends, but I don't talk too much, I mostly talk to one person that live here, there this other woman that can't talk & can't hear, she talks, but it is very different & sooooo annoying, her voice is really hurting my ears, I cannot help it. I been getting ALOT of body pain, my neck can hurt, my hand can hurt really bad, I get stomach pains, getting dizzy, can feel like I'm going throw up, can get sick to my stomach, I got more pain too. The way I'm feeling, my body cannot handle it. I SO HATE that the people don't care that I have Autism, I cannot do alot of things that the people that live here can do, the people that work here, they treat me like a NT, they want me to be somebody I'm not.
19 Jan 2025, 3:47 am
