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Forum: The Haven Topic: Rants |
| beelove |
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Posted: 13 Dec 2020, 6:36 pm
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Replies: 9,577
Views: 747,591
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| My mother really just tried to diagnose me?? Tried to tell me I have Aspergers, which I definitely got diagnosed from a PROFESSIONAL that I am level 2 autistic. It may seem small but it’s completely undermining my everyday struggles that I keep invisible because I’m only made to feel guilty for need... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Something someone said... |
| beelove |
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Posted: 15 Nov 2020, 6:05 pm
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Replies: 16
Views: 905
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| Someone said something to me too. I was diagnosed with lvl 2 autism as an adult. Now if feels like a constant battle with my closest family members. They’re always telling me that I’m milking my disability and look down on me when I try to express my struggles and where I need help to grow. They’re ... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I'm not doing anything each day |
| beelove |
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Posted: 15 Nov 2020, 5:52 pm
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Replies: 4
Views: 476
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| I just end up sitting about sleeping all day. Even if I write a list of the things I'm going to do, I'll just ignore the list and say "oh, I'll do it tomorrow". I hardcore relate, even being unemployed, it feels like there are heavy shackles around my ankles. Even though I know my goals a... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Dear "You"...From "Me"-Letters Unsent |
| beelove |
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Posted: 18 Oct 2020, 5:17 pm
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Replies: 5,007
Views: 589,898
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| Dear you, There’s so much I want to say, but your door remains closed. My soul feels the black coal bombarding my heart. The thoughts, words, actions, and lack of, smudge my eyes with their blackness. The time that separates us brings rains of early spring. These tears wash away the pain, you were o... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Dear "You"...From "Me"-Letters Unsent |
| beelove |
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Posted: 18 Oct 2020, 5:06 pm
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Replies: 5,007
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Fnord wrote: Dear You,
No matter how hard you try, you simply cannot control every discussion around you. Learn to live with it.
From,
Me
I know exactly how you feel, you must’ve been speaking to my mother. |
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Forum: LGBT Discussion Topic: I don't yet consider myself part of the LGBT community. |
| beelove |
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Posted: 18 Oct 2020, 5:01 pm
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Replies: 6
Views: 4,009
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| I consider myself agender and demisexual. Apparently this makes me a part of LGBTQ+... definitely doesn’t feel that way. Feels like you have to be one of the first 4 letters to be automatically apart of this community. I feel weird even saying I’m agender bc there isn’t a lot of representation, that... |
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Forum: Work and finding a Job Topic: Why is it so hard |
| beelove |
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Posted: 18 Oct 2020, 4:45 pm
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Replies: 9
Views: 1,555
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| If you have a bit of a cushion on the necessities, then its time to make lists - what do you know how to do? what are you willing to do? what wage do you need? what transportation do you have or can you make use of? what would you enjoy doing? Getting your resume out there can be a relatively passi... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Eating Disorders |
| beelove |
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Posted: 11 Oct 2020, 3:11 am
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Replies: 5
Views: 578
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PiersBall wrote: They cannot do this to you! You need a medical help, not a punishment
I know, it’s unfair. My insurance is running out soon, it’s getting more stressful thinking about receiving health services. My family support is slowly but surely fading to nothing. |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Eating Disorders |
| beelove |
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Posted: 11 Oct 2020, 3:09 am
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Replies: 5
Views: 578
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Catlover5 wrote: Sorry to hear about this. Do you know why they are hiding food from you?
They can’t communicate their feelings and desires healthily and are cheap, at least that’s what I presume. |
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Forum: Work and finding a Job Topic: Why is it so hard |
| beelove |
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Posted: 11 Oct 2020, 3:04 am
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Replies: 9
Views: 1,555
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| We live in a money world. Please don’t comment the useless “money doesn’t define you” interjections, they aren’t helpful. I’ve had to quit all my jobs (the longest was 11 months and I didnt even get paid) because they are too difficult to keep up with. On a sensory and mental space level, even simpl... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Eating Disorders |
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Posted: 27 Sep 2020, 3:25 am
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Replies: 5
Views: 578
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| I’ve had anorexia for about 8 years now. My parents recently have been hiding food from me. They know about my struggles and still choose to punish me for eating. It hurts my feels and really makes healing that much more complex to my brain. :( I don’t have any friends and had to quit my job because... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: How COVID-19 is affecting me |
| beelove |
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Posted: 20 Sep 2020, 7:53 am
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Replies: 27
Views: 1,191
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| They might be taking away all the money they’ve given me from PUA because I might not be able to prove I was was working. I was an apprentice so never filed a W-4, I have no paper trail to my shop. I’ve been really needing money to get out of my house. It’s just my narcissistic parents and me, they’... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I’m Sad and need to talk about it |
| beelove |
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Posted: 13 Aug 2020, 2:17 am
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Replies: 10
Views: 440
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| Today was probably the worst day I’ve had in several months. I happen to be doing immense childhood and generational trauma healing. But, I woke up triggered, then had somewhat of a borderline episode on a new acquaintance. I knew it wasn’t good from the start but my emotions took over me, leaving m... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Do you have meltdowns?How bad? |
| beelove |
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Posted: 12 Aug 2020, 11:02 pm
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Replies: 76
Views: 8,908
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| Sometimes it’s down right scary having to rely on people who only want to see you fall and be as miserable as they are. For me, the worst part was having to return to my oppressive house because I was in no condition to support myself. When I flunked out of the prestige college (that nobody thought... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I’m Sad and need to talk about it |
| beelove |
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Posted: 12 Aug 2020, 5:39 pm
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Replies: 10
Views: 440
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| I am sorry you suffered another rejection. In my experience this happens from time to time when I try to make friends and just push it slightly past the comfort level of the other person. I have found it more useful to let a relationship be as it is rather than trying to open it up to more vulnerab... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I’m Sad and need to talk about it |
| beelove |
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Posted: 12 Aug 2020, 5:37 pm
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Replies: 10
Views: 440
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| Sounds like the other people are ignorant in this situation . they only know their way of being and stick to it. It wd be nice if compassion wd be prioritized above comfort when necessary. A friend did the same..after i disclosed the diagnosis. She knew me for about 17 years though only 1 year in s... |
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